if i wrote you a symphony

Hello,

2010-11-09T13:49:00.001+08:00

HI HUMANS. HAHAHA. Ok I doubt there's still anyone coming t this deserted place alr. I don't really like blogging anymore but if you wanna find me, you can catch me @ tumblr! :D ask me for my link :)

How do people use 'I love you' so loosely?

2010-06-30T18:05:00.012+08:00

HELLO HI. @chloephobia is happygirl_92 nowww :D come on, ask me why quick! HAHA. Okay, here goes.. I'VE CLEARED MY HISTORY AND MATH TODAY! AND ALL THE WAY FROM NOW UNTIL THE WEEK AFTER NEXT, I'LL BE HAVING MY POST EXAMS HOLS. YAY RIGHT? HEHEHE IKR! Except that I've got t return t school on Tuesday for my lit paper 5 which is the last paper~

But the major horrible thing was that I totally screwed all the papers! All my 4 history essays were duplicate of one another! I wonder how Mishra and Joy Tan's reactions will be like when they read my so-very-the-short-and-similiar essays HAHA! Math was.. Oh. Em. Geeeeeeeeee. Ti. Ti. Emmmm. I left more than half the paper undone. And guess what? I ONLY GOT T KNOW LAST NIGHT BEFORE I TURNED IN THAT WE WERE HAVING MATH TODAY, HOW BLUR CAN I GET SERIOUSLY! I thought there was only history paper.... And history alone was enough t take my life. Ahhh whatverrrr, let bygones be bygones. Don't let bygone (some insecticide) spray you HAHAHA! Someone taught me that :D

Fwwwwah, I miss my 5n1 girls! Will be hanging out with them soon, I guess? :)
Going over t L's crib tmr and hitting the town with my 3 melons this Friday! Weehuuuuu :D

You were meant for me, so I'll be there for you.

Let's see how badly I'm gonna die for my promos.

2010-06-28T19:25:00.003+08:00

Had mob and lit paper 1 today.
My brain's totally fried...........

Old self's died, new self's born.

2010-06-14T11:51:00.005+08:00

Life's been at it's best so far. Without teachers, studies, stress invading my life and I'm enjoying my hols t the fullest. :D although I know it shouldn't be this way, but I really have no mood t really sit down there for hours and just study. I haven't started on any revision, I just don't have the discipline to! Shuckkkks.

Anyways church family camp was a total blast! Won't go into details but yeah, it was real awesome and God-experiencing. :) His presence was so authentic! Hehehe, enjoyed myself ttm! Now, I just have t apply what I received from Him during the camp in my life. Hohoooo.

Was slacking and having a heart-to-heart talk with sister one of the days after camp at fuchuncc's kfc. We shared a lotttt like seriously! From family > church > boys. Hahah. And then we suddenly went off topic and decided t snip our hair off. It was real random, I promise! HAH. So my hair now is damn short like just below my shoulder. 10 inches gone. Didn't regret being so rash I kind of miss my long hair though. But why keep the same hairstyle and length for so many years! We're still young and kicking man! There's so many new things we can try. New self, new hair :D I still feel that it's not short enough and maybe if I'm crazy enough I'll prolly go chop off a few inches again. Hehehe.

Going over t B's crib tmr! I think....... *shrugs*

I less than three you! :D

2010-05-29T01:03:00.002+08:00

Well seems like someone has been coming here everyday anticipating for new updates eh? I shall grant your wish when youre pigging right now :D HEY PEOPLE IT'S THE JUNE HOLIDAYS! Just had our GP promo on Wednesday. It was a complete sucker, esp my essay! Oh God, I really don't wanna get retained! ):

Anyhow, holiday = time for chasing after God, shopping, catch ups, learn swimming, tanning, volleyball (?) and.. Muggggging -.- my first day of holiday was splendid! :D had 15 hours of sleep and spent my entire evening at vivo with L. :) I wanted t finish 10 chapters of Wuthering Heights initially but apparently I couldn't wake up as usual. Hahaha. I'll do that tmr.

Gonna find some anime t indulge myself in! G'night owls!

Just so you know I really love you more than life itself. Loveeee :)

Note t self: Turn your eyes upon Him.

2010-05-20T17:38:00.004+08:00

Yay it's Friday tmr! GP, PE, HT AND THE WEEKENDS ARE HEREEEEE :D hooooho! Hope tmr's pe will be fun. Left standing broad jump and napfa is over! Cleared my 2.4 yesterday and my lower part of the body is hurting like craaaazy today. Oh God, let me jump real far for standing broad jump and I'll be able t clinch my gold! Waiting for my colourful nails t get dried and I'm going t spend my wonderful time in the shower room :)

P/S : Promos starting next week! GP kills.... ):

& I miss the way you strum the guitar.

2010-05-17T20:06:00.004+08:00

THANK GOD I SURVIVED MY MONDAY! :D met Feon as usual for school today and dang there wasn't any history lecture and we weren't informed beforehand like again! I'm totally going t reach school at 9am every Monday from next week onwards man!

The lessons today were quite easy. So yeah so niceeee (Y) Feon acc me t westmall t buy the ingredients for my dinner after school. AND I MADE MY OWN SPAGHETTI :D SO PROUD OF MYSELF HOHOHO. I didn't know how t heat up the sauce though haha. Good job @chloeyfaith! Shall learn from Feon/Elaine how t cook shark's fin for tmr's dinner HAHAHA no seriously!

All for the sake of love.

2010-05-15T10:42:00.004+08:00

I will hang onto what we have now and make it all the more better.
I will never give up, no worries. :)
A promise is a promise, and I will deliver whatever I have promised.

Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars?

2010-05-13T22:44:00.008+08:00

Today was a gloomy day. A really depressing one. I've been holding back my tears since the morning when I was on my way t school with F. Totally felt like crying cuz I was feeling real guilty of something I said t mummy when I got out of my house. Tried t suppress my feelings and didn't really talk much when we reached school. It was until MOB, just when I opened my mouth and asked F about something, Chelvam separated me from F, E, W and A. Idiot. Nobody t talk t for 80 mins -.- I survived with my itouch though hehehe. Was worrying the entire time about something.... Sigh.

History went well cuz Misrah didn't come t class. Then it was break when I really broke down and cried. I alr tried holding back but I just can't stop my freakin' tears from flowing! I've no idea why but I just felt really disappointed and crushed.. Was so brokenhearted. Didn't really talk t anyone during lit and math, was in total blank and kept sucking back all those damn tears which cannot stop welling up in my eyes. Rushed back t marsiling t meet ZC and down t orchard for my dental appointment right after dismissal. Thanks bro for accompanying me t my dental although everything was so last minute planned. Loveyou much! :)

He gotta go meet his family at vivo after shopping, or rather walking quite awhile with me. I shopped like less than 10 mins on my own and went hiding in the toilet for 40 mins while waiting for N t arrive. Too afraid t walk/shop on my own cuz I know I'll sure get lost ): No joke okay! Hmm.. We had our dinner @ Crystal Jade. I love! :D though my day started off terribly, but it ended real awesomely. Heh, gotta go pig now. G'night sweeeets! Sweet dreams t all.

P/S : I miss volleyball! *pooooouts*

Blessed t have you! :D

When I miss you like this,

2010-05-11T17:14:00.012+08:00

I close my eyes and imagine you near.

I want me want 我 want! There's so many 'I want-s' @ this moment of my life now.

2010 t fly past quickly~
MY MENSES T ARRIVE LA! IT'S MAKING ME ALL EMO LA.
corn soup
get rid of my laziness and start studying hard for promo.
play piano + learn guitar! violin also leh.. someone don't let though ):
finish reading Tess & Wuthering Heights for lit.
tanning + learn swimming but can don't wear the costume/not gross max!
play voooolleyball
snip my hair until shoulder leeength
A 5N1 GATHERING!!!
sleep now :D

But sadly, my wants are all unsatisfied. With all the time constrain and I obviously cannot multi-task -.- ok, actually I can fulfill the last thing on the list. & I'm going t do it right now! Ciaos!

Faith like potatoes!

2010-05-07T23:59:00.003+08:00

First thing first, I REALLY CANNOT STAND THE GRUESOME SIGHT OF MY CO HOME TUTOR LA! She's so weird, like seriously. She never fails t get pissed off by our class (like which teacher doesn't?) so today when everybody else in class wasn't showing her respect by listening t her like any other days, she repeatedly asked us t shut up but apparently we didn't then she finally shouted this: "HAVE YOU ALL LOST THE ABILITY TO SHUT UP?!!" omg that was freakin' hilarious, no joke! The whole class burst into fits of laughter like crazy! Hahaha. After which she went through all the school rules one by one with us retardedly (like we have no idea how t read la?) cuz our class' late comings and absent rate is really high. She said something and the whole class laughed. Then she was like, "A4! What's so funny? Don't think your language very good ah. I've seen your results and know how well you did okay!" *smirks* LIKE NO LINK PLEASE. WE WEREN'T EVEN LAUGHING AT HER ENGLISH/PRONUNCIATION WHATSOEVER LA. CRAZY WOMAN.

Well.. Not that I don't feel bad or anything for treating her this way. But whenever I was feeling guilty, she had t come and ask me t shut up when I was asking something t clear my doubts or maybe having a small conversation with Elaine or Feon. That really pisses me off big time. Oh, she frowns all the time and will diao you too! Ugh, enough of her alr.

So after school Weilin and I stayed for volleyball, Elaine for band and Feon headed home after keeping us accompanied for a while. I was melted by the disgusting weather and fell asleep while waiting for trng t start. Kept burping upon waking up yucks! Trng was damn tiring today even though coach didn't come, I dunno why! Did the usual 10 rounds, 500 digs, 500 medicine ball against wall, 300 medicine ball ups, 100 pulls. Played against the wall, had shuttle runs, serves and more too. Damn tedious! But I enjoyed the pain :) no, I'm no saddist Weilin! It's so satisfying, you gotta admit it! And girl, I hope youre fine. Have ample of rest this weekend alright?

Left trng early cuz of cell. & CELL WAS GREAT TODAY! TOTALLYYYY :D we watched this really awesome movie, Faith like potatoes. It was damn good, seriously! It inspired me a whole lotttt! Went home with sister straight after cell as we were damn beat. Thanks for sending us home, Wenhao! It's very nice t see you tonight, I shall see you tmr too yeah brother? :) Oh! I helped Van cut bangs before cell started HAHAHAHA.

P.S: God, You're so good, so awesome, so real. You're definitely the best Daddy one could ever have! You prove me wrong whenever I'm down in faith & shine your light at my face, showing me new glimpses of hope again. I love You, Lord.. I LOVE YOU!!!!

Our promises.

2010-05-05T23:44:00.003+08:00

I don't quite fancy minnie mouse. Randooom much! HAH. School was real slack today. With the fire drill, cancellation of pe lesson, easy mt class.. I've endured my Wednesday :D trng wasn't that fun today, was pms-ing so I appeared t be quite gloomy. Hmm.. On a happier note, Weilin's joining volleyball yay! :D was dismissed at 630 and I went on t meet........... Hehehehehe. Dinner was bad, like max. I had curry chicken noodles with 2 cokes and 1/2 bottle of h2o. The spiciness was so disgustingly overwhelming la! >< my pms was getting the better of me when I tried t calm myself down again. Oh, & I saw this very gorgeous pair of heels! Ahhhh! I'm so gonna get it this weekend! In need of a new bagpack too! Don't think I'll be getting the luminous red nike bag anymore. There's alr 3 people carrying it in school :/ so much things for me t get. Too many t list it down here. anw, it's a lovely lovely night :) sweetest dreams t you!

I'M NOT GOING T SCHOOL TMR. HEHEHEHEHE.

Never will I forsake you, :)

I love us :D

2010-05-03T22:16:00.003+08:00

I love weekends best. Don't you? :) I had a totally awesome day today. Thanks for everything up until this moment, my daily happy pill. You're really the best one could ever asked for. *inserts infinity of hearts!* back t mundane school life tmr. Thank God I don't have t go through the longest day of the week cuz today's a public hol! Wheeees~ I still dread school very much, though. Looking forward t Friday! HAHAHAHA.

You never fail t make me fall head over heels for you again and again.

You are always here.

2010-04-29T21:10:00.001+08:00

Fab dinner. Awesome night. :)

A blessed 18th birthday, indeed.

2010-04-28T16:47:00.011+08:00

Thanks t all who wished me happy birthday on 21st April! :D So much blessings were showered upon me that made me feel so loved. Special thanks t Feon, Elaine & Weilin for preparing all those epic failure surprises! I'm so sorry for my slowness on the 20th which kind of spoilt everything :/ Sorry!

Extracted from Feon's blog:
I didn't wish Chloe a biggggg HAPPY BIRTHDAY WOMAN over here on onsugar, so I'm a lil' sad.
):
But we threw her a series of EPIC FAILURE SURPRISES(LOL) & she was slow in realizing it and it made Elaine and me so.... specchless?
'Cause we were expecting a somewhat-predictable response and Chloe ended up saying," .... Eh? Ohhhhh..... *thinks* "

WHERE GOT LIKE THAT ONE LOL.
Kay nevermind.
Weilin got her Christian prezzies on behalf of us and Elaine decorated the Chiffon cake w choclate & M&Ms!
Why Chiffon(sponge) cake right!
.
.
Because Chloe, sadly, is lactose-intolerant.
She can't be near milk, cheese, eggs, etc etc.
You get what I mean right?
Like yogurt, butter, ice-cream~
She's missing out on ALOT of good stuffs in life.
But she's okay with it, because she hate the smell of these "things" too.

You silly woman! You wished me so many times in person, on fb + twitter and sang me countless times of happy birthday song! So don't be apologetic that you wished me late on your onsugar k? & I'm terribly sorry, love! I didn't know what got into me that day either. But I really appreciated the cute lil yam baos (so sorry once again that I told you guys I actually didn't fancy yam baos when you guys questioned me randomly during class!), tweety sweets, chiffon cake which was coated with chocolate & M&Ms! AND FEON, THAT TWEETY BIRD NOTEBOOK! GOSH. I love you guys max! I really thank God for good friends like you! :D Lovelovelove! ♥ xinfinity!

Went for volleyball training that day after school before meeting my dearest mitang, Lee Shujie @ westmall. Gosh, she came all the way t fetch me from school. So touched! Did a lil bit of catching up before heading t causeway t meet the rest. Had pasta for dinner. Never did I ever imagine that they will buy a birthday cake for me! Aww.. Thanks loves! As I don't wanna disappoint anyone of them, I swallowed down a small portion of the cake down my throat. THANK YOU MITANG FOR FINISHING IT UP FOR ME!! I LOVE YOU LA, SERIOUSLY! Thanks for the necklace too, darlings. I love it t bits! But I love you guys more. :) I really hope that despite the fact that all of us are in different schools/courses now, we can still meet up from time t time yeah.

Of course, not forgetting my dearest SALT too. Thank youuuuu so much for the rose and big big red card with all those heartwarming messages on it, sweets! MAX LOVE!!! & my dearest darling sister by the name of Esther Tan Yi Yinn, thank you for the sweet sweet effort for decorating a wallpaper esp for me uh! So cute of you! Like your sister sia. HAHAHAHA.

Thank You Daddy God, for bringing me t this world 18 years ago. Thank You for putting so many nice and sweet people in my life. I'm so grateful for all of them, Lord. God, I pray that as I face this year with faith, You will continue seeing me through it all. Last but not least, I know You didn't forget me and You never will. :) I love You Father up high!!

No, I didn't forget you. Thanks t you too, love. For everything you've done for me. :) I ♥ you t the infinity max!

Stop & stare.

2010-04-28T14:37:00.002+08:00

HIIIII. After neglecting this space for like really long, I've decided t come back here.
Hahah. Actually I'm not feeling well now. Update soon. :)

Trading my sorrows.

2010-03-25T16:15:00.001+08:00

HI, I'M FINALLY UPDATING THIS SPACE. HAHAH. This place is really rotting cuz I've been updating in my private tumblr. Hehehe. Sooo.... School has been mad tiring! And apparently, I still haven’t cut off all ties with procrastination. Am seriously tired of you being my best friend man! Please shoo as far away as possible from me laaaa, stupid P word.

Anw, I really have like ALOTTTT t catch up for all my subjects! I’ve alr wasted my March hols, what t do? Can only blame yourself la Chloe Tan. Who ask you t be so playful? Only know how t enjoy and play and slack and enjoy and slack and play! I really do miss Miss Lim cuz I’m struggling real hard with math! That stupid GC which costed me 150$ is bloodly hard t use la. The other H2 subjects aren’t any better too. Mr Rude Snail a.k.a Chelvam keep throwing tests at us for MOB and I keep flunking everything so horribly..

Adding on, they didn’t teach us any nut for history and like expect us t know everything by ourselves? Eh, please. I’m not a genius although I’ll very much like t be one. Why would I be doing here in MI if I were t be one? I would have long gone overseas for my masters and pHd la! What are subject tutors for when you keep taking leave from school and missing lessons? Plus the fact that the complaints my class’ getting every-single-day-without-fail is really driving me crazy! It’s like each and every subject tutor is complaining about how rowdy and lousy my class’ attitude is like everyday. No joke. I don’t beg t differ cuz I feel exactly the same way too. Why bother t get up so early every morning t attend school if you’re going t socialize and not study at all? QUIT MI LA. There are people in the class who wanna study t get a place in uni okay?

B’cos of a majority of them, the minority of us are getting so affected and got pulled down too. What is this? God, I remembered asking for good classmates last year and the beginning of this year. So why…. Sigh. Okay, I just realised that I’m actually ranting too much. I hate rantings but I’m always exercising it -.- kkk, shall stop here. Mummy’s nagging at me t shower alr!

youre my daily dose, (:

2010-02-24T18:27:00.011+08:00

I was totally melting inside.
& even if you hide that silly smile of yours, you still look amazingly cute. :)

Hi humans. I have too many things t update but i just don't have the time for words. Am gonna make this a quick post and off i shall go complete my assignments! Blabla.. School has been real hectic ever since we started proper lesson and just yesterday, we had our first GP test. Hmm, you can say i pretty much screwed it up. :/ anw, i got a really weird teacher for MOB. He speaks venus language in an alien-ish way & he looks like snail. -.- we were having MOB in the lecture hall on monday and i was scrutinizing him, thinking that he really does look like a snail when Elaine actually turned and whispered the same thing t me too! It was damn hilarious la. Hahaha. Gooosh, i really can't stand him man. The moment he started talking, i'll immediately shut off....

My math teacher is quite a nice person though. (: but i miss Miss Lim.. The way other math teachers teach is really different from her, totally. ): and yeah! I have 2 lit teachers and 2 hist teachers! One of my lit teachers speak like machine gun, she goes super fast can. And i'm alr starting t drown in hist after just a couple of lessons. They didn't like go through or teach us anything about cold war man. There's no textbooks -.- oh mannnn. We have t do research ourselves. Shucks. I really miss secondary life.. ):

Oh! Did i mention that my class is a really noisy and rowdy class? Yes, it is. So my class's splitted into half, the quiet ones and the noisy ones. And i happened t be the quieter half, hehehe. Unbelievable, i know -.- but i really can't stand those Tamils in my class. No offence though, I'm not a racist. But they're just plain noisy la can. Why wanna take A's when you wanna social and act cute so much in class? Every teacher that walks into the class have t like keep repeating themselves t ask them shut up. Wth..

Okay, enough of school life. Let's side track abit and I'm gonna tell you a list of things i miss.

My 5n1 darlings. Shujie, Regina, Junru, Belvis, Sengfong, etc..
Mr Kumar's forever epic face and expressions!
Miss Lim's lectures and scoldings. Not forgetting testing of formulas and having us do different papers every single day when O's was really near.
Mr Junus' humour and cold lameeee jokes!
Mr Tan's coldness & dao-ness towards the class' lame jokes.
How the girls dread those long and tedious PE lessons.
How the guys make sick jokes all the time.
How Shujie's always playing with my flexible limbs and goes, "OMGGG. HAHAHAHAHA! YOUR HANDS AND ARMS ARE SO FUN!! YOU SURE YOU GOT BONES OR NOT! LIKE NO BONES ONLY HAHAHA!"
Shujie's unglam-ness. & the way she always protect me. (sounds like lesbains, i know)
The way Shujie & Junru will always help t wipe away the tears on my tearstained face/the stains i always dirtied myself with. Which makes me feel so kiddish and loved. :)
Bullying Regina with everyoneee. :D
Having heart to heart talks with Belvis. Regina, Shujie & Junru too la.
Cheering up Regina when she's always down.. And lovesick! (this one forever can't be helped one la. she's always thinking of guyyys. tsk!)
How the last row always get pissed off by some haolian people who thinks that they're just so good hahaha!
Waking Shujie up abruptly when she falls asleep. Hehe.
Crapping and laughing out loud with Shujie which will in turn earn ourselves stares from everyone.
Dnt lessons with Regina and the malay guys!
How i always lame and they gave me those -.- faces.
How Junru always get irritated and affected by us when we quarrelled and had cold wars with Tan Meng Kiat and she have t always be the middle person. Hah!
Regina's "you good good ah!" Sookmin's "tsk!" , "act cute!" , "si ren leh!" and "sick leh!" I bet they all miss my "enough hor!" too. Hahah!
Sengfong's cute but gayish expressions and reactions!
Daydreaming, stoning and blanking out in class..

Ahhh, i just miss everything about 5n1 so much! Okay, i think i'll stop here. Tears are welling up in my eyes as i'm missing all these alr. G'bye! I took too long t make this update, shall go do my IRP homework naaaaw.

you never fail t make my heart smile. (L)

no more tears.

2010-02-08T21:29:00.010+08:00

Helloooo sweeeeets! It's time for an update, i guess. Hahah, so school has started for more than a week and i've somehow gotten used t the new environment and people ard me. :) still having a hard time remembering my newly made friends' names though. I seriously suck at remembering names man! :/ anw, gotta know a really good friend by the name of nadirah chow kaixin on the first day of school and we've been sticking t each other since then. Everyone thought we were friends for a long time. Hahaha. The coolest thing is that we have everything in common! Really like everything man, she's a french hornist who doesn't eat eggs (she consumes dairy products though) and her backbone is crooked like mine! Well, except that she's a les and i'm straight. If you see this rah, i still hope that you'll break up with gab man! *blink blink blink @ you!*

Of course i gotta know some other really nice people too. :) and i'm joining tennis! Linh, a really nice vietnamese is joining with me too! :D thought of joining netball, but i didn't really like the coach so i dropped the idea. Unquestionably, i really do feel like joining band again. Esp after the french horn SL rang me up and asked me t attend band last week. I seriously miss the feeling of putting my heart and soul into playing and getting myself into the music. But, sad t say, cuz of my braces i can't really play french horn anymore. It hurts. The conductor was trying t talk me into playing a woodwind instrument or switch t the percussion section. But nah.. There's only french horn in my heart. Hahah! Reasons like band will definitely consume alot of my time enabled me being firm with my decision of not joining too.

Orientation has ended and we're having our dreadful tutorials and modules this week. Boooring. I missed secondary school life without all those dull lectures. Most of all, i missed my friends, truckloads. As much as we don't wish t admit it, i'm really sorry that we've drifted quite apart. I'll try t find time t meet you guys up soon alright! Yes, of course i do miss you regina yeong! We've so sooo much t catch up man!

Cny is ard the corner~ it's so gonna be a saddening new year.. I hope we're going back t malaysia man ): I miss my cute cute popo, i miss my cousins, i miss my aunts and uncles, i miss ipoh!

you = my daily dosage. & I like laughing at you. :)

my invaded heart & mind,

2010-01-27T12:31:00.004+08:00

Hello pandas! :D fwah fwah. I'M POSTED T MY FIRST CHOICE, MI! YAY MAX.
But the sad thing is, i'll be starting school tmr. :/ how faaaast, i dread it so much!
I hope i'll have no problems fitting into a totally new environment all by myself man!
God, i want really good friends....

I'm so sorry t worry you, always. ):

this unbearable pain, i will be suppressing it.

2010-01-23T01:09:00.000+08:00

Am bottling up all the different kinds of feelings within me.
Afraid that i'll eventually be bursting like a balloon one day when i couldn't tolerate anymore.

I just wanna forget about the world.

with faith,

2010-01-16T15:11:00.004+08:00

FWAHHH! :D it's been quite a while since i've last updated this space. I've got so many pictures t upload but heh, i'm just plain lazy. :P Hmm, so O's results was being released a few days ago. My results was average. Expected t get either a f9/e8 for humans. But i got a d7, thank God! Still, can't get into a JC since i've flunked that subject. My english, science, math and dnt were rather disappointing though. Much thanks t my oral and essay, i got a b3 instead of a1. Ahhh, so pissed off with myself! And science was an easier subject t actually score but i ended up getting yet another b3. Zzz.

If youre curious, these are my 12 choices.

Millennia Institute (Arts)
Psychology & Community Services (NP)
Psychology Studies (TP)
Millennia Institute (Science)
Child Psychology & Early Education (NP)
Law & Management (TP)
Social Sciences (NYP)
Early Childhood Education (NP)
Early Childhood Studies (TP)
Applied Drama & Psychology (SP)
Apparel Design & Merchandising (TP)
Veterinary Bioscience (NP)

Although some may be quite impossible, but who cares since i've got so much spaces t fill in! Lol. I doubt anyone i know is going MI. ): I seriously don't wanna attend school on the first day all by myself. Me being so blur will end up getting lost and stuff man. I'll cry like mad la! Luckily yinhui kor is going t acc me t school. Thanks brother, i love you! :D

Have been going out almost everyday and slack. I'm gonna study real hard when school starts and dang, you won't see me updating this blog that often alr. :) okie, shall get running! Gonna tidy up my study table, cupboards and shelves then help mummy t mop the houseeee. :) i feel so guai today, hoho!

P/S : Happy birthday MILLIEEEEEE! :D

I fear of loneliness. I always do.

faith!

2010-01-01T23:29:00.005+08:00

Happy 2010! May all of you have a blessed year ahead. :) as i look back on my new year resolutions last year, i realised that none of them were fulfilled except for one that said stop biting fingernails. LOL. I managed t get rid of that bad habit b'cos of braces. Hahah. Okay, i have so much t blog about but i have no idea how should i begin with.

Well, i bade goodbye t 2009 with a grateful heart. I've found so many more good friends and got so much more closer t some. Like for instance, regina yeongweesan, bay zenglin, sheryl tan, lee shujie, soh junru, belvis angweijie, mak sengfong, yeo heping, mah sookmin.. Ah, just so many of them lur. It was definitely a year full of struggles, ups and downs. Really tough for me t walk through but God still saw me through. (: i won't be elaborating much about 2009 for it is alr the past. I'm looking forward t the surprises 2010 have for me! First t be up will be O's results. I really pray for good results, Lord. I want You t guide me through and still continue walking with me.

Anyway anyway! The 30th was yammy's birthday. (You're waiting for me t blog about this right? Thankyou for being so patient dear. LOL.) Met him, ahbee, caleb and stephen and caught Avatar tghr. It was a really nice show! :D *thumbs up* we managed t trick him that all the others wouldn't be able t make it but actually a surprise was planned for him. Heh, hoped you enjoyed your day with ME, brother! I bet you did la. Although it was err.. a lil boring? :/

Had watchnight service over @ ky yesterday. :) sister and i met zeng, sweet and siyan first cuz sweet was actually planning t go bugis street first. But b'cos of her being so late, we didn't. Lol. Aiyah, actually we did also la. Had dinner @ longjohn, then helped sismag t buy chicken breast and eggs before walking t ky. Our heels were killing us like mad! Got t church @ appro. t 8pm. Then started our sharing. :) followed by congee > worship > testimony sharing > countdown > went ard wishing people happy new year and hugged one another. Lol.

Got back t church and had our overnight prayer. I love singing praises max lur. The feeling's just so sooo good! :) the time passed so quickly and it was the end of the prayer time. They then decided t call macs delivery for breakfast. 2 hashbrowns was damn fulling. Home @ 8+ am and pigged on my bed 'til like 5pm when my gastric acted up and i had t go t the toilet. Yeah, sucks max. Going t church for the adults' service tmr. Am gonna be the vocalist for tmr's worship. SALT, please help t pray for my nervousness and fear t go away! *fingers crossed* Oh, and i'll be uploading the photos we took tmr.Yam zhi cheng. Here it is! Your long awaited sexxxy photo is up here. Hahah, don't get too touched by me love. Hehe, i really thank God for you, brother. I thank Him for asking me t bring you t church, i thank Him for bringing more friends into your life, i thank Him for another brother-in-Christ. Thanks for being there when i was really down, be it physically and emotionally. Thanks for always listening t my craps, rantings and rubbish. I'm sorry for venting out my unhappiness on you at times. B'cos you know, not many can take my nonsenses as well as you. I can never hide my feelings infront of you. You always see through my fake and plastered smiles. Thanks for the assurance from time t time. Although i don't always show my love, care and concern towards you like how i show some of the others, but deep down you really mean alot t me. You're really like a big brother t me, always protecting and loving me. From the bottom of my heart, i love you much darling. Happy birthday and may you have a closer relationship with our Daddy in heaven and also a blessed year ahead! :)

Of course, i thank God for SALT too. :) i love all brothers and sisters!

('.')

2009-12-30T23:45:00.002+08:00

Watchnight service @ ky tmr! :D blog after that.

broken heart, broken smile.

2009-12-28T02:54:00.002+08:00

"Let the past be past yeah. No point dwelling." - ltlw.

I'm not feeling like "wow, sooo great!" @ the moment. Yeap, my mood's on those free roller coaster rides yet again. Negative random thoughts are taking the capacity of my brain. I have no complete idea how t handle these rojak feelings. Am worrying so much right now. I'm afraid of what my future holds for me. I'm at loss for the path t take next year. I'm.... baffled, perplexed, bewildered, whatever shitz that describes confusion.

As i was making new resolutions during service today, i felt some kind of weird disturbance surged t me. Struggles followed by struggles. Each waiting for their turn t wait upon me. Ahhhh. I dunno dunno dunno lah! Vexxxed max!

Nvm, on a happier note, we had much fun @ lewis' crib last late afternoon. :) thanks for not chasing us out of your house despite the dins we created, boyf! :D we watched singapore idol and the results was astonishing much! All of us thought sylvia would win but.. Ugh, shagness! She was so much better than sezairi man. Sheeeesh. Watched The Promise too. But missed the ending b'cos of the idiotic singapore idol's results. :/ Sister was catching Avatar with a friend so she left early with amanda. Zeng left after that too. Crapped somemore with the guys and then ahbee walked me home when it's appro. t 12 midnight. Thanks papa! <3

It's really not that easy t forget someone you loved so much.
The naive me still wanted t believe it was.

when our eyes interlocked,

2009-12-25T17:04:00.001+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS LOVELIES! ('.') Weees ~ life's been fab! Met up with shujie for our job interview @ lavender on wed. Crossed my fingers and hope i don't get the job. If only money will pour down like rain.. Went over t church @ 6pm last evening with sister t prepare ourselves for the caroling which was starting at 8pm. There was a request made for all the girls t put on fake eyelashes. -.- ew, i cant stand the itchiness! Irritating max. After putting on that bothersome and disturbing thing on each other's eyelashes, we cabbed over t suiyao auntie's place. Caroling then started! Blessed 4 houses in total. The 3rd was yuenhe's place. Miss him like anything!!!! :( everyone was like really despondent over at his place. But when we were at the 4th house, woaaah! Damn high please! There was also like quite a few cute of guys there! :D but t me only one la. So clever somemore, studying in uni. Asked yinhui t take their numbers for us, hehehe. Then ended up my evil sister and siyan kept texting "my" cute guy! Ahhh, i never save the number though. Like i will text him or something == lol.

Slacked @ yishun macs 'til appro. 6am with my beloved SALT. I love macs' milo. :) i always feel damn ecstatic drinking it. Hoho. Had a heart t heart talk with adrian. Thanks for listening t my rubbish, bendan! Loveyou brother! :D cheerup k, i will be keeping the both of you in prayer. Down t town tmr with them. And movies next week, hopefully.

P/S : Happy birthday, Jesus!

forever love = SALT!

2009-12-21T23:59:00.003+08:00

Hohoho! Yesterday morning: Got up at 630 with sister t prepare ourselves t meet SALT and go over t ky. Thanks for the mashed potato, adrian! So sorrrry that i wasted it. :/ as a result of waking up so early in the morning, all of us were falling asleep during preaching. And ahbee really did! Lolll cute la. After service was the games, the guys were busy playing and earning points for the different stations while the girls lazed and wormed ard ;x the weather was freakin' atrocious. Whilst drizzling, the sun was shining so brightly.

Afternoon: Left ky @ ard 4pm? Walked over t bugis and roamed ard iluma first. 'til my gastric relapse and they acc me t longjohn for lunch. We then walked ard bugis junction. Decided t take neoprints out of the blue, damn random la! Hahahah. I've tried an umpteen times but still couldn't upload the pictures here for God-knows-the-reason. Took alot of pictures while walking and standing too. Hehehe. Was rushing against the time t send millie home @ like 9 with ahbee and caleb when we saw her sister after alighting. So she went home with her sister while ahbee went t take bus and caleb cycled me home. :) thanks bro!

Today: Wokeup @ 1+ and went back t bed @ 2pm. Slept 'til 6+ , wormed ard the house and went for dinner with ahbee, caleb and stephen at 9+ :D hehehe. Slacked, they had prata, wenjie came, slacked somemore and they walked me home @ appro. t 12am. Loveyou guys! Going out with SALT tmr. But i'm feeling lazzzzy....

P/S : 3 more days! I miss you my dearest brother! Hope youre still doing fine, love.

Yesterday was the 20th. It's exactly a year. We could have been out, celebrating our 1st anniver if we didn't go separate ways a month ago. Love is something we couldn't explain or interpret, things went wrong and ending it was the only way out. From the bottom of my heart, i really hope youve moved on and will stay strong and happy in life right now. May all disappointments and unhappiness be far far away from you. I hereby wish you a blessed christmas. :)

renewed life. :)

2009-12-19T22:16:00.002+08:00

GUESS WHO. Yeappp, i'm back! Hahah. Camp was a blast! Went over t ky for preparation 2 days before the camp with sismag, yinhui, kailing and zhicheng. Time really passed very quickly. Before i realised, it was the first day of camp when we had our crazy games. Angel & mortal game was fun too! I got tricked by wenhao initially man! He treated me so good that i thought he was my angel. -.- but he was really nice lur. Haah. Yuenhe got t leave early b'cos of his court case the following day. Didn't even got the chance t bid goodbye t him. :( damn shaggg.

Had some children session thingy on the 2nd day. Then ministering session. Cried my heart out. I really pray that he will repent and live well in there.. Had our fasting on the 3rd. Then revealed our angels through candles in the midnight. It was damn cool! The atmosphere was extremely heartwarming. Me like me like! So my angel was ahbee! Thanks papa, for your thoughtfulness, sweetness, care and concern. And thanks for the cute whistle keychain, mortal yinhui! :D I really like it alot.

Didn't wanna leave and break camp lur. Felt damn sad on our way back. Fell sick and had high fever so i turned in early for the day. And today my fever subsided. Praise the Lord man! If otherwise i would have needed t skip today's adult service xmas celebration. A piece of good news is that yuenhe will be able t join us for christmas eve which is the caroling! Yayyy. Looking so forward t christmas eve, new year weekend and every weekends 3 weeks after that! :D I WILL BE ABLE T SEE MY BROTHER IN NO TIME!

P/S : Thankyou SALT for today's care and concern. I seriously can't imagine life without you guys. Let's always stay this close and shower one another with love okay? Yay, i love you people t the max of max! *blows kisses t each and everyone of you!*

ever since then,

2009-12-11T18:23:00.001+08:00

Since i'm sian-ing away, i decided t come here and do some rubbish talk instead of staring away at the screen. Maybe i should watch some anime or read some unfinished novels t kill time. Sister's over at her friend's place. Mummy's busy doing chores, and i'm busily lazing and worming ard. I.AM.HUNGRRRY. But dinner's unprepared yet. Ahhhh. Okay, sister's back! :D there's someone i can bully alr. Nahhh, shall go repaint my nails. :) Adioz!

it'll be too late when you realise it..

bite bite! ('.')

2009-12-10T19:01:00.007+08:00

YO! I'm back! :D i bet you guys miss me beyond description rightttt? Hehehe. Yesyes, i know.. I can almost hear your screaming now, regina yeong. Hm, so my lappy was sent for repair therefore no updates were made. But then again, even if it wasn't down i wouldn't have updated this space either.. My life is too mundane alr. Haha.

Life without anime/dramas is sian de lor. But b'cos of the breakdown of this stupid thing, i did alot of catching up with mummy and sister. :) anyhow, i got up at half past 7 this morning t prepare myself for dental appointment which is at 930, orchard. Damn shag please. Got my braces done. The uncomfortableness is so unbearable! Enduranceeee.

Well, im going away for church camp from 13th - 18th dec with the guys in the photo above. Yay! I-can't-freakin'-waaaait. Okay la, i forgot how t blog alr. LOL. 'til then!

P/S : I miss 5n1. :(

so not over you.

fallen apart.

2009-11-29T17:43:00.004+08:00

Just at one go, everything came crashing at me. I dunno how t react. I dunno how t solve the problems which have alr arose. Dumbfounded by the facts, yet immune t the happenings. After prelims when it was just right before O's, my grades were deteriorating exorbitantly, someone told me i had underwent a drastic change and knocked some sense into me which eventually woke me up. What she said really made sense. If they're happier that way, why not? But i just can't bear t see the end of it. Who would have thought that this will actually happen?

How will you let someone you love go? (Other than bgr) That's totally hard for me. I don't wanna imagine that day when it's time. But things can barely change anymore, apparently. I need Your power, God.

Dear Lord Father, i really pray that everything will come t a halt soon. I hate all the silent sufferings, esp for her. Nobody knows what's going on except You and us. Nobody knows what's the end of this except You. Even though she kept repeating herself that she alr has come t a conclusion and made the decision but You're the miracle that i always believe in and i don't think that this is what she really wants too. I can feel her wavered and troubled heart, too afraid of getting hurt repeatedly, over and over again. Yet i don't want things t come out this way. I won't hate anyone for this. But please Lord, spare them their happiness. When they're happy, i'll be too. In Jesus' name i pray, Amen.

behind those eyes,

2009-11-26T21:18:00.005+08:00

Wth is wrong with you? Why must you be so tough on him? I supposed he alr tried.. Even though his love is pretty different, but from his silliness, i can see that he's caring for you. Are you blinded by all the anger and hatred in you? I can like literally feel the hurt in him when you said those sentences without much thinking man! Wtf la, can i be given the permission t slap you awake not? Ugh! Whatever la!!!!! F this shit!

To you-know-who-you're. Hey babe, i know it's really not easy t end a relationship when both parties still love each other although things aren't the same as they were anymore. I can totally understand what youre facing and going through. Throw all the negative things t the back of your mind okay. Try t find things t occupy yourself and that will stop you from pondering too much. They say time will heal everything which i dont agree. I only believe that time will immune everything. If you need someone t talk t, dont hesitate t ask me out okay. Hope t seeya soon! Loveyou :) promise me t take good care of yourself alrighty?

enclosed heart.

hit the delete button.

2009-11-25T21:12:00.002+08:00

I feel like deleting this stupid blog.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAAHAHAHAHA.

2009-11-22T23:54:00.004+08:00

Hola cola mooola! Ooh lala~ just got back home with sweet, zeng and sister from jurong point. Woo lala~ LOL. My legs are totally sore now. I bet our trip t Ikea on tuesday, wednesday's sentosa and friday's hit-the-town trip will make my legs suffer even more. Fwahaha. Am looking extremely forward though ^^ yay! We'll also be hitting the gym real soon. I wanna grow taller lehhhh. 163! That has been my ideal height since.. Forever. -.-

There's so much things that i wanna buy lur. Money money, roll t mama please~ so that mama will be happier. You'll be happy when mama is happy right? Ah, whatever lol.

Assholeeee, im feeling incredibly green currently. My stupid beloved sister is in looove. T.T your dream has come true liao lor? I am so sad.... (inserts sad face xinfinity) Okay, i can smell my drama calling out t me alr. G'nightz lovelies! :)

days without you ; i can feel nothing but only loneliness.

the 20th.

2009-11-20T03:00:00.005+08:00

Just got back from yuenhe zhu's chalet. And im sick, hahaha. How great. (Y) can die faster. :) LOL. I am totally drained ~~from everything~~, so drowsy at the moment. But yet i dont feel like sleeping. My heart's feeling really heavy. Do you know how heavy an elephant weighs? Yeah, im feeling that crestfallen now. Or maybe not. A blue whale is definitely heavier.. Ah, whatever. Craaap. I dunno what im typing actually. You can jolly well ignore this absurd post. I'm always like this once a blue moon. -.-

I wish t stay strong too. But all these strong fronts im braving.. Aren't helping. Not even a least bit. I feel so much more worse in fact. I tried t sound really happy and jovial infront of you, i really tried my very best. I thought the pain and hurt would be gone if i smile, even if it wasnt from deep within. But it doesn't help. Not at all. I don't even know what the shit have i been doing for this two weeks. I was absent minded in everything i did. Indulged myself into anime and dramas t not remind myself and think of anything. However at the end of the day, im still back t square one. The stupid soul who told herself she mustn't regret leaving you.. The lost soul, who missed you terribly..

I've no idea why but when i looked up at the sky during chalet, all the constellations looked like you.

your silhouette.

2009-11-14T23:14:00.003+08:00

Thought i saw you while i was on my way back home.
But damn, i guess it's just me missing you too much..

break this heart.

2009-11-12T17:55:00.001+08:00

Helloooo. Even though O's over, i dont feel a bit least elated. I dunno why. :/ am feeling really down at the moment. Sighhh. Anyhow, reggie and i went t do our hair right after science paper 1 yesterday. My hair is super short right now. More than 10 inches were chopped off alright. The lightlighted parts arent that obvious 'cos they looked kind of like my natural hair colour. Sibei sian. Wanted t do intense light blonde highlights initially but i would have t bleach my hair. It would be really troublesome so i dropped the idea. Boooring~ actually i dont really have anything t update. Just feeling like ranting over here. There isnt anything for me t do now. I dont feel like talking t people. -.- whatever, bye. Okay, maybe i should reply the tags..

@Junru Yeah, now that its over, i can have my braces soon! :D
@yiory Hi smooch smoochie! When are you going t revive your blog la? Lol.
@Regina ` Where are you asshole? :( im not feeling happy..
@zhicheng Lol. (I dunno what t reply you ><)
@SINGYEE Haah, it just sucked. :/
@Lewisaah. Stupidddd tam.

@kai ling Haah, nah. It isnt good.
@Paulineee.t! Sure dear. :)
@zeng! Thanks love! It's all over now. (:
@Paulineee.t! Huh? Lol.
@Junru I will never sleep at your place ever again! >< i dont wanna be peeked at!
@zhicheng ><
@bobby DI! How are you!!
@yiory Yeahyeah, missed you. :)
@YENGTIEN Hey there darl! ^^
@zeng! Youre greatly missed laaa. Haah.
@ESTHER HI SISTER!
@Sheryl Nah, love die you too! :D
@Passer Er, why not you go ask them personally? :)
@Junru Helloooo!
@Junru Orbeeee. Hahaha.
@urchella Okay.
@Regina Where are you, qinaideeee? I'm dyingggg.
@Lewisaah Nah, it wasnt. Me dont like. :/
@Paulineee.t! And its all over now! Hahaha. Thanks for your jiayouness. :)
@Regina HAHA. They are birdies! Kuku birds!
@bobby Updated! ^^
@zhichengg I'm back now. Haha.

@Regina ` I know you miss me everyday hehe.
@SHIRLY/C ♥ Yay, its over tomato!
@`/shihui Thanks shifu! It's okay alr. ^^
@Sheryl Hey there, lovely!
@HINYYEE Sure thing!
@LEANNA Yay, i am following you too! :D
@HELLO ! Hello! Hahaha, what school are you from? (:
@yuenhe Zhuuuu. :(
@yiory I'm not that baaaad! HAHAH.
@zhicheng Thanks! :D
@Paulineee.t! Thanks! ^^
@Junru You're most welcome :)

@Junru Update alr laaaaa. Lol.
@Regina Glad that you enjoyed yourself :) luv you aplenty too! AND STOP THINKING ABOUT THAT JERK!!!!
@Pauline.Tanggg! HI! :D HOW ARE YOU. Relinked alr. (:
@Sheryl I miss you too!!
@zhicheng Isn't that post happy enough? :/ ive alr tried t sound really happy..
@zhicheng There, its up there alr. (:
@shadajieeeee Hello! Sure! :D

2009-11-09T16:44:00.008+08:00

These are some of the hundreds photos taken last sunday @ rev koh's farewell party. The rest are all uploaded on fb. :) Hm, went t church as usual yesterday. I love the worship! It was heavenly awesome can. Went for lunch after service then t marina barrage for kite flying. Adrian's daddy drove sister, kailing and i there while the rest went there by train themselves. Hoho. But uncle got lost, so we were basically going in circles. Felt so giddy that i almost threw up. ><

Kite flying was okay. Didnt find it that much fun. It was tedious instead lur. :/ we ended up playing monkey, splashing water and singing by the beach under the starless yet beautiful sky in a row. Haah. The guys were all thoroughly wet. Without knowing his intentions, yuenhe came and hugged me before i knew he wanted t make me wet as well. So nice of you uh, zhu. :) lol.

Headed down t yishun for dinner @ ard 10pm or so. I like the fishball noodles auntie! 'cos.. Hehehe. Lewis tam knows why. ^^ rushed back home after eating. Showered and went down t meet the guys again. Slacked 'til 2am and homed with sister while they tonned. Woke up at 3+ today..

I'll reply the tags real soon guys. Am too lazy at the moment. Hehe. I wanna play sims3! But i think ive somehow lost the cd somewhere in the house -.- okay, gonna pester zhicheng t play viwawa with me. (I'm really very very bored!)

are you happy? i wish you really are.
i really missed you..

pain.

2009-11-06T01:17:00.004+08:00

Lost the reason t smile. Lost my reliance. Lost my pillar of strength.
All gone. I've lost myself too.
What's left is just pain and sorrow. These overflowing tears.. So hard t control.
I do miss you and your hugs too, love..

happy birthday reggie!

2009-11-04T22:23:00.013+08:00

OHMYGOD. I cant freakin' believe that O's is over soon! Can you? Am just left with sciences mcq paper next week. Everything started and ended so BOOMZ! My 5 years in secondary school has finally ended. Today's physics was kind of hard for me :/ got one whole question in section b wrong. Shag diao can. Geog was manageable, but my lorms questions just cannot make it. Never study, what t do. Just let me get a d7 for humans and ill be satisfied. The day was really long. Was extremely restless waiting for the clock t strike 2.

Threw away all my physics and geog notes once i left the hall. LOL. Headed t causeway t celebration reggie & heping's birthday @ pizza hut with shujie, heping, sookmin, junru, maris, laykim, aiting, sengfong, belvis, timyiong last but not least the birthday girl, regina yeong wee san. A very fulfilling breakfast + lunch + dinner meal lol. Are you touched by us, asshole? Hahaha, i bet you were. :) be thankful for friends like us okay! Lol. Slacked ard causeway while waiting for our 740's movie, Jennifer's body t start. Was hunting some ahlians down. Hah.

Saw yinhui kor too. He seriously scared the hell outta me man! I was so serious opening up my new bunny bunny and then suddenly someone clung me by my neck. Wahlaooo. The guys went home when we were going for our movie. Heping and i couldnt stop laughing in the cinema. Sitting beside qinaide was so funnn! I love scaring her, hehehe. Let's sit tghr again next time k? HAHAH. It was a great show, by the way. Megan fox is so haaawt la! Damn.

~~I'm going t chop my long long hair away tmr! :D this long awaited day has finally arrived.~~ Postponed t next week. :) my stomach is incredibly noisy now. Hungrrry la.

ReginaYeongWeeSan. Happy birthday t you love! Finally 17 eh? Haah, really hope you've enjoyed yourself today. Thankyou for being there for me as and when i need you. I'm really grateful t have you as my qinaide. :) i know forgetting someone isnt simple. But dont forget, im always here when you need a shoulder t lean on, hugs for assurance, listening ear t rant on your unhappiness whatsoever k. That's all the stuffs that you lend me the entire time too. Heh. Sometimes, you just gotta like rainy and stormy days. B'cos they're just simple awesome! Nvm, i will make you fall in love with such weathers after O is officially over. ^^ i believe that our qinaideship will last longlonglong. Longer than jack and the beanstalk's beanstalk k. HAH. Must invite me t your wedding dinner 10 years down the road hor. There must be more photos of us as compared t that of you and your future husband okie? Hehehe. Okay la, i shall stop here. If otherwise, you will start sobbing alr. LOL. Loveyou my dearest girl. Sorry if this paragraph is too random ah. You should know that im a very random person la. Hahahah.

P/S : I MISS SALT! :(

smile wide chloe!

2009-11-01T14:03:00.002+08:00

Just came back from church. Lewis and i decided t heckcare tmr's ss and chem and join the others later for rev koh's farewell party. I'm prepared t fail my combined humans. Yay, and it spells fun later! (hope i dont get all emo again like just now and they have t come and console me..)

when darkness fell,

2009-10-31T15:20:00.003+08:00

I should be studying now. Yet my emotions and feelings are reigning over. Everything is in black and white. Where have all the colours gone t. Happy pills please come t mama now..

solutions, where are you?

Beautiful saviour.

2009-10-29T23:54:00.009+08:00

A wasted day today, i must say. Daddy sent me t school for dnt lesson in the morning. When we were alr at our school, i got out the car only t realise i forgot t wear my lenses before leaving my house -.- ugh, feel so blind for the entire day can. Met darian at 230 t rp for revision. But it was unproductive ttm lol. We ended up eating and eating. Highing and highing. Crapping and laughing. All the money on food ended up in the toilet bowl as soon as i got home. Gastric, sucks.

Just finished helping my sister t choose her subject combination for next year. They have like 80 different kind of subject combi siah. Damn cool la~ Anyway, i miss math. I know this is weird and unbelievable, but i am actually falling in love with that dumb subject. Next week's O's time table will be a heavy one. Sciences with humans and dnt in between that two days. All so cramped up. Jiayou everyone! Best of luck :)

On a random note, i miss junru and shujie. ....
Go get that distinction for amath! :D

so boomz!

2009-10-28T19:27:00.008+08:00

English and emath papers down! Two most significant subjects, yet i screwed 'em up horribly. Sigh, i think my essay was written out of point. Damn that stupid topic! Me and my stubbornness. See the word 'Power' dunno what t write alr still gey kiang wrote rubbish. See la, results also going t be like shit alr lor. Kiss g'bye t my distinction man.

Emath.. Paper 1 was a lil demoralising. Miss lim went through the paper with us today. A total of 18 marks was lost. (excluding careless mistakes) Acted smart again lor, changed 3 of the correct answers. Zzz. Paper 2 was.. !@#$%^&* no time management, failed t do 2 questions. 27 marks leh!! Wahlao. And i swear i know how t do one of the questions de lor! Ah, B3. I want a B3 for emath!! :(

Hai, just hope ill do better for both my sciences and humans bah. Geog, please dont fail me. Gonna bet just on globalisation for ss. Before i go off. ....

Happy 18th birthday, yinhui kor! :D stay handsome and cheerful eh, loveyou. ^^

P/S : All the best t my beloved amath classmates tmr!
P/S/S : Please cheerup my dear junru, stop pondering over emath. What's done cannot be undone. Let's just hope that the belcurve will be lower bah. Jiayou for your amath k!

dashed.

2009-10-25T14:46:00.002+08:00

I know i had been unstable emotionally. Sorry t worry you guys.
I will brace up, soon.

best of luck.

2009-10-20T18:11:00.003+08:00

Time really flies. It's tuesday alr. Will be having our O's practical on thursday. Hope i dont screw up everything like how i did for prelims. Gonna start studying hard as of today. I hope its not too late? :/

All the best t my dearest 5n1 peers! & everyone else taking their O's :)

O's faster end~ I wanna watch movieeees! Go shopping & chop off my hair!!!!

P/S : Happy 10th monthsary, love. <3

sujuuuu!

2009-10-18T14:40:00.008+08:00

Look at my eunhyuk! He is so freakin' haaawt ttm!
Who on earth can dance and rap as well as him man?! *MELTS*

prostrate.

2009-10-15T21:38:00.002+08:00

I'm bushed. Breather breather, i need you.
Coughing have yet t be gone. My sore throat has lasted for more than a week! Omg.
English, emath, sciences, humans, dnt.. Just let me conquer all of you alr!

Graduation day tmr.

3 more days of sitting next t lee shu jie, that woman whose laughter is atrocious.
3 more days of going mad with her in class.
3 more days of sitting tghr inside our mesmerising classroom as a class.
3 more days of.. 5n1 last few moments tghr.

After being tghr for 3 years, what we are left with now is 3 days..

uncertainty.

2009-10-10T18:05:00.001+08:00

I dunno what i want anymore.
Goals? What happened t mine?

faith, hope?

2009-10-09T13:26:00.005+08:00

So drained.. Yet the second hand of the clock's ticking so quickly, not waiting for me, the one who's lagging behind. Fight against time? I dont have the strength t. Hope? I cant catch even a glimpse of it. Seriously lack of confidence.

I've been feeling quiet recently. The moment i speak, it will either be words of sarcasm or i'll give people my damn attitude. Dont freakin' know wtf is wrong with me, zzz. Today's better though. 11 nov, please arrive speedily! I cant take this anymore!

Shot a pistol, in my face. Or right at my head.

running out.

2009-09-27T18:45:00.006+08:00

ON HIATUS.

Will be back in a month's time. :)

sorry for the disappointment,

2009-09-25T23:33:00.009+08:00

As predicted, my results sucked BIGBIG time. The worst ive ever obtained in my life. Finally someone knocked some senses into me. Didnt know ive been slacking so so terribly 'til today. Where's the girl who was once so determined and hardworking? Where did she go? Thanks for the wakeup call and advices given. Appreciated much. :) today will be the last i will cry over it.

Caught phobia2 with belvis, sengfong, junru, regina, maris, laykim and aiting. Mitang couldnt join us as usuaaal. The ending of the last story's was really a twist. So l-o-l. The several jumps belvis and sengfong had were really ludicrous manz. Hahahaha. Had our late lunch + early dinner after the flick. They bought some stuffs before we headed back t school for math coach. Mock exam like always.

Homed with heping, belvis, sengfong, sookmin, michelle and mengkiat thereafter. Saw zhicheng and yinhui on my way home. Went t find sister, zenglin and siyan, slaaaacked and came home. Hm, i dunno if i should give tmr's church bbq a miss..

P/S : Sorry. But please stop comparing me with you. Not only is it pointless, its also extremely dumb t be comparing with someone who didnt study at all lur. Why not look at those who never fails t top? Wah, qinaide. I think this paragraph can one stone kill two birds leh. LOL.

P/S/S : Thanks for being by my side when i need someone t rely on, shoulders t cry on, listening ears for me t do my rantings. Lovely friends, you guys fulfilled all that. Thanks so much for always wiping my tears away for me, and the stains i dirtied myself with. <3

this will be the last, i promise.

my hopes are all dashed.

2009-09-22T21:38:00.002+08:00

I'm dead beat! My eyelids are shutting as im typing these out. So, today was our last prelim paper. I dont wanna get back all the papers on thursday man. Imagine all those stupid craps i wrote as answers, i will be scolded really terribly.. I reckon.

Caught The Ugly Truth with sengfong, shujie, regina and belvis after our paper. Junru went on with her dating therefore didnt join us. Haah. We had mos tghr before that though. :) waited all the way 'til 130pm for that boring show. :/ there's some hilarious parts lur, but the whole storyline was abit.. Err lol.

The others went home while reggie, sengfong and i headed t bugis. I cant stop eating fishballs manz. Fishballs ftw! Lol. Meeting reggie tmr, and yengtien later @ night. :) g'nightz!

P/S : I'm so in need of a haircut! Rawrrr.
P/S : Really cant wait for O's t end!!!!!!!

I miss you so much, love..

from the bottom of my heart.

2009-09-21T10:10:00.002+08:00

20092009 ; Happy 9th month together, love. :)

Too many losses in life. Too many regrets. I dont wanna have the same outcome ever again.

heartbreaking.

2009-09-15T18:52:00.002+08:00

Take me away from this tyrannical world..

miles away from me,

2009-09-14T11:40:00.007+08:00

A year is going t be gone really fast, isnt it?
Time will be passing even faster as compared t all the previous millenniums right?
Take good care of yourself for these few months please.

the thought of not being able t see you for so long's making tears well up in my eyes again.
breaking down..

hallucinatory.

2009-09-12T19:09:00.002+08:00

I'm not feeling good now. Down with sore throat, my whole body's feeling vastly weak. Abhorrent feeling! Went t school for emath mock exam today. It was last year's Olvl paper1. Guess i screwed it up pretty horribly.. (as usual *sigh*) Bought cup noodles and headed over t junru's place with reggie after miss lim dismissed us. And t my amaze, i didnt know there's something on earth as the instant porridge until today! My goodness.

Got cheated by two of my moronic friends, leeshujie and sohjunru today. Gullible, i know. Ugh. Thanks ah, darlings. -.- hm, so we had our k session after filling our stomachs. Lol! Time really flies when one's enjoying. And then junru forced us t study T.T but her bed's so tempting. I drifted off into my own lala land eventually and ended up daydreaming, again. Showed 'em my preschool photos. They were like, "Omg. You sure this is you? What blow did you have. Why the drastic change man?!" -.- i think i looked exactly the same lor. Just that i was really tiny and a face that was really chubby and rooound what. Shujie's reaction was the biggest of all, as per normal.

Too lazy t go home myself so mummy came over and fetched me. She's sucha weida mama. :D me luv her! Yay. Talked t her about my future again. Had a hard time thinking for some chinese words t explain t her. Lol. Dumb -.- but she can fully understand what i was trying t say. Hahaha. Ah, im hungry. I'm like having maggie mee for at least a meal everyday lol. Okay, going t cook my maggie now. G'bye!

P/S : I miss tyh brother.. :(
P/S/S : Dar has yet reply my msg! Rawr.

Stop checking up on me. Are you a stalker? Zzz.

my beloved yh bro,

2009-09-10T15:47:00.011+08:00

I miss you, zhu.. Sorry for treating you that coldly the other day.
I'll pray hard that nothing's gonna happen t you.
We'll all be waiting for your return, i promise..

I really miss you alot, lil bro.

just for you.

2009-09-08T21:15:00.004+08:00

Happy birthday sheryl love! I have so much t say t you, but i believe that it will be a whole paragraph and chunk of words if i were t do so. So, ill just cut short everything yeah? :) Thanks for being there for me, as and when honey. Be it when im feeling low or happy. That pair of listening ears and advices given are very much appreciated. When i have no one t confide in and turn t, i have you. Thankyou so much, sweetheart. I hope you have a blessed 15th birthday. And i really look forward t the end of the year when you'll be reunited with us. Last long with adrian and smile wide, my girl. Like this > :D hahahahaha.

Loveyou wholeheartedly, chloe.
Xoxo.

P/S : Baby's back! :D

party@share's.

2009-09-07T22:09:00.002+08:00

More pictures are uploaded in fb. So it was sheryl's birthday party yesterday. Church as per normal, and Knowing was screened after service. Great show, i must say. And it left me hanging there, wondering.. When is the end of the world really coming? Just when?

Anyhooow. I really like sheryl's bedroom! It's sooo princessy prettaye, like really. Enjoyed myself alot. Thanks for inviting us t your party, lovely. I seriously think that ill be emoing at home if not for you. :) hope you enjoy yourself as much too. Loveyou!

School for chem today. Kfc with shujie&co. Home, showered, mummy sent sengfong and i t meet reg qinaide @ rp. Slacked -.- off @ ard 530. Acc qinaide t the sensei. Kept having t ensure her that it wont be painful lol. Bubblet, slacked and home sweet home. :)

Baby's coming back tmr! Yay yay~

we'll say it's love.

2nd day without you here with me.

2009-09-05T22:56:00.004+08:00

Happy birthday t my beloved sister, esther tan yi yinn! x3 (:

Thanks for everything, up 'til this moment, love.

You're the best sister one could ever ask for. Luv you!

Met junru @ 330 today. I'm a happy girl! Bought my cute "sock". Made her buy with me too. Hehehe. Thanks for keeping me accompanied 'til my parents came and fetched me, girl! :) dinner with my lovely family. And, church tmr! Will be heading t sheryl's crib for her birthday party after that. Yay, i cant wait t rob 10/11 of her assets with zeng! :D

you were all that is on my mind every minute, every second, love.

schizophrenic.

2009-09-04T23:43:00.001+08:00

Mummy got me my new phone! :D so it's LG Arena. LG Renoir has yet t be launched, apparently. English paper2 today. Guess its pretty much manageable. Didnt know how t phrase some of the answers though. Stayed on for physics for an hour then t vista for lunch with baober, qinaide and aiting.

Headed for junru's thereafter, while the other two pumpkins went home. Hahaha. Helped her with her blogskin and i went t sleep. Was drifting into my dreams when that woman came asking me t move t the other side of the bed so that she can sleep too. Ugh. My sweet dream!! Lol. Slept happily for 3 hours. :)

Walked back t school @ ard 6pm for math mock exam. Made so many dense careless mistakes. Went church t look for my lovelies @ ard 10pm after the paper.

Meeting my baober junru tmr. Then celebrate sister's birthday with ma family later in the night. :) g'night sweethearts.

It has been almost 12 hours since you left for thailand.
I'm missing you like mad! So much so that im going metally deranged.
Come back quiiiick, baby. :'(

& boy, im gonna see you in my dreams tonight.

big wide smiles! :D

2009-09-01T19:39:00.004+08:00

Aces day + teachers' day yesterday, met baby for a lil while after school. Went out with qinaide later in the evening. (I'm mentioning you, reginayeongweesan!) Couldnt decide on where t go intially. After taking the train t yck, we then decided t head down t jurong point. Hahaha. Never ending laughters, as usual. :) went t check out the phone im more interested in, LG Renoir. Only t get t know that there's no stock anymore. And that they wont be restocking anymore? Totally sad diao can! Sigh. So, its arena for me. :( the trip back was torturing! She was laughing like nobody's business on the train. All eyes were like on us. My goodness. Oh yeah, we took the wrong train back. -.-

Got up at 8+ today. Showered, prepared and before i was about t leave for baby's, i realised that one of my lenses had torn -.- so i had t purchased new pairs on my way t his place. Dropped dead and rested the moment i reached love's place. Was sooo exhausting. Baby tricked me with some stupid "magic" tricks. Lol. I didnt fall for all though. Hehe. Was in the toilet when his daddy came home, so i was like pretty shocked when i came out, seeing him. Didnt know how t react at first. Lol, im sure i looked quite dumb at that moment. Left his house @ ard 130? t causeway. Bought our tix for The proposal and had macs for lunch. It's an awesome show, go watch people. :)

Thanks for the wonderful day, my pretty boy. (: love you so much, dar.
Come back quick from your trip t thailand okay? ):

P/S : Prelims' starting tmr! And what am i doing? I havent start my revision yet! Wth.
Oh, did i mention that i got a big zero for chem test? Well, i actually did. Ughhhh! I need help!! *SOS*

what's become of us is all b'cos of you, asshole.

stucked.

2009-08-30T23:17:00.002+08:00

I'M FREAKIN' STUCKED IN BETWEEN THIS TWO PHONES.
WHICH ONE SHOULD I GET? I NEED COMMENTS. :/

verses written impromptu.

2009-08-29T21:11:00.008+08:00

Studying with junru today wasnt as fruitful as i thought it would be. The problem didnt lie on me okayz! It's that woman. She was hit with flu and having bad headache. I was then distracted by her along the way and there goes our productive revision. Hahaha. Take much care la, baober. Fish&co, newyorknewyork soon yeah? :)

Walked ard north point. Then t amk. I want money! I want shoooopping. Almost chopped my hair off lol. But that woman stopped me. I will tolerate until O's ended, a new hairstyle then.

Anyways, prelims' starting next week. I'm gonna flunk everything horribly. Somehow, am still dwelling over my english oral. Just the thought of it makes me feel as though ive alr failed t pass my english with flying colours. It's just so depressing.. Hai.

My eyebags and dark rings arent going away yet :'(
Pimples popping out. Braces in sept hol. Yes, no? :/

bobby > good brother ^^
Junru> hahahaha! we're back t normal alr. :) its regina and him now. hoho!
kAiLiNg ♥ > thanks so much for your concern, sweet. i am fine, (: no worries alright?
zhicheng > kor is loved. hees.
Sheryl > i miss you too! seeya tmr k, love? *hearts*
zeng > soon, perhaps. :D
Regina ` > thanks lovely! luv you too my qinaide! <3
CORNelia > yeah, its been so long! im doing fine. how about you, twinnie?
chloe/. AKA Regina ` > HELLO? I KNOW YOU LOVE ME T THE EARTH'S CORE, REGINA YEONG. stop using my name and tag saying i love you la! stupid girl lol.
nholas ! > thanks bro. :D loveyou!
zhicheng > eh, what do you mean by "by not seeing you ba i think that the best way (:" ? o.o
Paulineee.t! > yeah, miss me jiu say mah! if not i must sense myself. waste my energy! lol.
zhichengg > slacker la you! hahahaha.
ESTHER > thanks darling sister! <3
Junru > haha, just venting out my anger and ranted abit about how much i hate those kind of people? heh.
Sheryl > i know! 'cos i miss you toooo. :(
CORNelia > yah.. its starting next week >< meetup real soon twinnie!
zhicheng > updateeeed. happy? haha.
SINGYEE > IT SUCKED IT SUCKED IT SUCKED!!!!!

zombie-like.

2009-08-28T23:56:00.004+08:00

HIIII. Finally some proper update eh? Haah. Okay, maybe not. Blogger's being sucha whore. I cant upload any pichas. Shucks. So, about my recent life.. It was real hectic. Like t the max! And my oral just simply cannot make it. Hais. Fucken sad. But what t do? :/ had been rushing dnt this 2 weeks. And, our coursework days have finally come t an end. Yay!! No more crying, no more anything. Hahahaha. I doubt so la. There's still 4 other subs for me t struggle and juggle with. Sheesh.

Hm, going out with junru tmr. Time t relax myself abit.
I wanna watch movies leh. Who wanna go with me? *pouts*

P/S : IMY, FGJ. :(

screwed up!

2009-08-26T21:36:00.002+08:00

EFFING ORAL SUCKED BIG TIME!!!!

yuuucks.

2009-08-22T21:41:00.007+08:00

I despise penurious & petty guys.
If youre a miser and avaricious person, please do not make friends with me. I dont freakin' need scrooges in my social circle. If you happen t be those extremely petty kind of person. And is alr my friend. Please refrain from talking that much t me. 'cos i dont fxcking know when the hell are you going t get angry over small matters. Like __________. Sucha turn off.

Not t forget, liars too. They are the very first ones on my hate list. F off suckers!

I love seaweed. :) g'bye. Update tmr again.

afraid t lose her.

2009-08-16T22:19:00.014+08:00

If you dont mind, its gonna be a really random post today. Hahaha.

It's a fattening day! Had a mouthwatering meal this morning before leaving for church. And after i came home from church, ive been eating non stop up until now! I cant believe my monstrous appetite today -.- took my nap @ 5pm with a satisfying stomach. Faaaat. My mens' coming, i guess..

Church was kind of interesting with the 4 different kinds of stations today.
> zhicheng, thanks for the sweet lil card bro. The message in it is really heartwarming. :) am so touched. Hehehe.

Didnt join them for lunch. Zc acc me t 166 t get my saline and then left for causeway t meet the guys. Oh! Did i mention that i accidentally trimmed my eyebrow when i was trimming my fringe yesterday? -.- this is so inane.

Okay, i miss my classmates. *pouts* i miss mitang. Qinaide, junru, smoochie, ling, belvis, .. Baby too la sial. Omg, why am i being so random?! Lol. I miss mummy too. She's been out the entire day. .... Yay, she's at the gate now alr! :D

Wont be updating this space like once every 2/3 days alr. Will only be updating on weekends. But dont stop tagging k, guys. :)

Our 8th anniver. is just 4 days away~ yay! Hehe. AND MY OLVL ENGLISH ORAL'S JUST 10 DAYS AWAY. WAAAA.

My sister's strumming on her guitar like nobody's business. And daddy just suan/ed her. He's like teaching her how t play. LOL. Funnnny. I'm going t savour the crab that mummy and daddy brought back! Hehehehe. Omg, so faaaaat!

Luv, chloe.

Treasure, and love like there's no tmr. Too afraid that ill miss everything at one shot..

your alluring smile, (:

2009-08-15T23:55:00.004+08:00

Love this two girls of mine, <3

Everyone's moving t onsugar. Maybe i should too. Lol, actually ive alr created an account la. It's just a matter of time when ill be moving. Haha.

Went t the library with baober junru just now. Met her at 730. Did 2007 & '08 physics paper1. Wanted t study for chem actually. But i didnt bring my books home -.- headed t causeway for shakerfries when the library was about t close. I love girls' talk :D

That obedient girl had t go off by 10pm so after i sent her t the interchange, i went up t the platform and met baby there. :) im in the twilight zone currently, euphoric y'know y'know~ Hehehehehe. ^^

& i love you, always.

this feeling of uncertainty,

2009-08-15T15:00:00.002+08:00

I miss adam khoo workshop. I miss melvin. Maybe bong alil too lol.

Friends have been asking me almost everyday about my swollen and puffy eyes. Lol. It's my ghastly eyebag. They're just getting heavier each day without fail. My dark circles are seriously hideous and unsightly too. -.- can someone please tell me how t get rid of these dreadful (!!!!!!!) ?

Meeting junru later. 'til then.

There are some things in life, which are just totally out of your control.

grasping for air.

2009-08-13T20:42:00.001+08:00

Took this during english lesson today. Was afraid of getting caught so. .... lol.

Hai. I am here just t rant on how stressed up i am. Dnt has been consuming almost 24 hours of my day, everyday. I even had nightmares of myself being reprimanded for not having completed this and that for dnt. You wont know how im feeling. This feeling is so intense. Damn. I couldnt breathe.

Dnt was cancelled today, but i stayed on with qinaide t touch up our folios 'til 7pm. Thinking that we wont have the time for dnt tonight, we threw our folios into our alr locked up classroom through the window. And heck, my physics fomula's inside my folio! I seriously have no idea how t take the physics test tmr. And chem, i know no nuts! This is total bullcrap.

Stressed up t the max. Bye.

When everything falls out of place.

just stay this way, ill be more than contented. :)

2009-08-11T21:23:00.006+08:00

HOho. I am feeling exceedingly stressed up @ the moment. Dnt deadline is tmr. And yet i havent finish my presentation drawing, exploded drawing, working drawing, production flow chart, production planning, etc. .... What the bird have i been doing!

Met dar for a teeny weeny lil while just now. Thanks for your shoulders and those tight and warm embraces, baby boy. I bet you didnt know i was crying silently when i was in your arms. Lol. Your encouragement and assurance's all that i need. :)

> t some kukubirds ; please stop getting on my nerves and irritating the hell outta me. Tyvm. Event + Response = Outcome!! Ugh.

P/S : Get well soon, sengfong! I need you t teach me chem, ling. T.T

~~Nobody's there, all the time. Everything's a lie.~~
I have you. (:

ill be unbreakable.

2009-08-10T13:43:00.005+08:00

Okay la, i can hear some of you complaining about my shortage of updates alr, so here i am. :) friday's inter-class game was amazingly fun! The boys had soccer and girls, captains ball. Enjoyed myself alot. Winners, we are. ^^ stayed back for dnt after dismissal. Lazed ard instead of doing proper work. Headed home with qinaide quite early. Prepared myself t meet SALT later. Met darling for alil while before that. Went down t indoor stadium with 'em after which. Home @ ard 12+ .

Saturday, finally a day out with my baby love! :D t town. It was quite a boring trip. But i was a happy girl, nevertheless. Hehe, i love my boy. ^^ met SALT for dinner that day when darling had t left for gramp's place.

Sunday, party @ church. Slacked and did crazy stuffs in church all the way 'til like 9pm with some of 'em. Left for dinner after that. Chit-chatted @ the playground near my house area with sister, lewis and zhicheng 'til 1am and they walked us home.

Today, im so gonna touch up on my folio if not ill be so dead. Deadline's this freaking wednesday! Sheeeesh. Physics, chem, math, english homework all not touched yet. Ughhh. Bye.

without you here, my life will be incomplete.
_____
zhicheng > lame pokkk lol.
ESTHER > LOL, like real lur. hahah, couldnt even recognise yourself! haah.
florence > he might not be free eh.. :/
Junru. > shaker fries is niceeee :)
urchella' > melvin taught me how t say thankyou. so, thankyou darling! HAH.
nholas ! > LOL! okayokay, not t worry. i wont tell people that youre petty. promise k? haha!
Paulineee.t! > okay la, love you la! stupid girl. lolll.
bobby > so are you okay alr? after so looong.. LOL.
JANE. > sure thing ^^
zhicheng > its not good! waste time! *sticks tongue out*
zeng! > yeah! :D without the guys, that is. HAHAHA.
Paulineee.t! > lazy reply laaa. lol. im replying now le okay!
zeng! > and apparently its not the same melvin guy. haha. i bet my melvin's cuter! LOL.
Sheryl, > hello sweetheart!
Passerby , > hm, she's okay? i dont dislike her. (:
Regina ` > what ass ass! i bet you had more fun than me lur. go out with _______ somemore lur. stupid qinaide!
zhicheng > updated. :) lol, update your blog also la!
Stephen > yo bro! :D
ESTHER > YOYOYOYOYO. HOHOHOHO.
zeng! > okay! nudge me in msn when youre online okie? (:

start afresh, its a brand new start.

2009-08-06T23:34:00.009+08:00

Today is the last day of adam khoo's workshop. I felt a drastic change in my life. Something in me just lighted up. I dunno what actually kindled inside me, but i know im no longer the same anymore. I pondered much. I have wasted 6 years of my life as a youth after that fell i had in primary 5/6. I took far too much time t stand up again. But again, at least, ive stood up again today. Special thanks t melvin and bong who woke me up.

The closing ceremony we had was really awesome! The ones who went up and shared touched me so much that i couldnt stop shedding my tears. Those effing tears were so bloody hot inside that freakin' cold air con room, i tell you! And i cant believe that i actually pluck up my courage t look for some of my lost close friends and exchanged hugs and handshakes with 'em. The whole room just felt so warmth, my tears were rolling down like nobody's business. I dont wanna lose anyone important in my life ever again. Nobody can escape from my clutches as of today. LOL.

And yay! I found back my lost long close friends. The best thing was, i actually told mummy and daddy that i love 'em. Woohoo, im a hero! Thankyou very much. Hehehe. I'm missing melvin leh. Lol.

An extremely fruitful day today. Pictures tmr okay? Inter-class games between the sec4&5s tmr. :D

P/S : I love you too la, baby. :) dont jealous k?

aim for the stars, so even if you fail, you'll still land on the moon.

my sweetest love ever.

2009-08-03T21:10:00.006+08:00

Omg, this is really freaky. I looked so much like my sister in the picture above. She even thought it was herself! Hahaha.
I'm on cloud nineeee now. Hehehe. Nah, maybe cloud ninty nine. LOL. School was pretty boring today. Our class will be splitting into 2 groups for ss with effect from today. Odd index numbers with mdm salimah and even with mr goh. I happened t be in mr goh's class with mitang, smoochie, mira, sookmin and sengfong. Baober is in mdm salimah's. :( heping was asked if her english name is peace. He's like super lame please. Lol. But his class will be fun, i reckon. :)

Mdm sal left school early for some reasons, and miss yati took over her coach for geog. I had a really hard time staying awake man. Zzz. I felt as if im in sauna rather than a classroom. Was released @ 4+ . Headed t causeway with sinle, accompanied her t have her lunch@macs. Walked ard aimlessly after that 'til 6+ . And she left home while i went down t yck t meet baby. That explains why im this elated right now alr. Hahhah. I'm missing him now alr siah ~ *pouts*

Adam khoo workshop tmr. I'm feeling quite neutral. But looking forward as well lur. There wont be any lessons 'til next tuesday! :D YAY.

no one can melt me like how you manage t. :)

x -----

nholas ! > hahaha! i didnt know you are that petty. lolll.

Sheryl, > hiiii sweetie!
bobby > are you okay alr, di?

zhicheng > yippie yaya yippie yippie ya~ HAHAH!
zeng > luvvv! cramps are the suckiest thing that can happen t one.
zeng > yeah, i love sharks! we're bestfriends man. HAH.
Junru. > headache will make your head go pompompom! migraine sucks even more! its confined to only one side of your head. suckkk.

zhicheng > thick skin! who miss you siahhh lol.

Sheryl, > hello! i miss you too. i really hope you can join us for all the activities man. :( *inserts sad faces*

lewisaaah. > yeah, i stayed 'til so late for dnt. hardworking right! :D i did nothing though. LOL.
ESTHER > fwahaha, i dont have any lessons tmr! you haveeee. hehe.
nholas ! > are you really thaaaat bored? LOL. tag more then. HEHE.
Sheryl, > cant blame lur, his life too boring alr. we must think of a way t add colours t his life! fwaaahah.

lewisaaah. > yeah, like so freakin' obvious siah!
zhicheng > LOLLLL.

florence > yeah, soooon! confirm the 15th?
nholas ! > since when im your boss ah? why do i have so many subordinates! i dont have enough bonus for you all! LOL. your name nice what. i was thinking if i should get your ic number from you and post that too. LOL. so choosy la you!
zhicheng > lol, if you say so. :) hahaha.

you add colours t my life.

2009-08-02T21:30:00.015+08:00

Hihiii ^^ im feeling so sleepy. Lol, just got back from town with my lovely people. :) went for festival of praise with sister, yinhui, zhicheng, lewis, adrian, ahbee, zenglin, kailing and jiahui yesterday. It was fun. But i think next year's will even be cooler. They are gonna invite planetshakers t lead worship for nuts! :D i enjoyed myself pretty much, (: but it sucked having migraine when youre attending such event though. Like totally. *sticks tougue out* had our dipper (dinner+supper lol) @ yishun's macs. Missed last train, and took 858 back t woodlands. Zhicheng and ahbee sent sister and i home, thanks kor & daddy! Got home @ 1+ .Wokeup late this morning. Managed t be on time for service. Hehehe. Reason was b'cos i didnt have t wait for my sister. LOL! Had lunch @ 167 after service. Went home t fetch sister and went down t town tghr with 'em. Ion's so big lur. Zeng and i had our eyes on so many georgous stuffs man. I wanna get that, that, that, that and. ....

And there's something really weird about our church guys. They shopped like nobody's business! Normally you see guys following girls ard and wait (pitifully) for 'em right? But our case is, we have t follow 'em like guys. And they shopped like girls! They choose their stuffs slower than us too. One good example is, NICHOLAS SEI YIN HUI. Lolll. Cute la them.

There's so many upcoming events. Next weekend's fully booked. I wonder if i can finish my homework on time. Hais. Adam khoo workshop this week. Excited, no? :/

Ah, im too lethargic t continue this post. Gonna have my shower and sleep alr. G'night sweets. <3

youre the only one who has got hold of the keys t my heart.

on all smiles.

2009-07-31T23:56:00.006+08:00

Stayed in school 'til 8+ for dnt yesterday. Didnt do much work actually. Lol. We had pizza delivery, all thanks t mr kumar! :D had been starving all the way since recess. So like, my gastric relapsed after having 2 slices of pizzas go down my stomach. Ran t the toilet for diarrhoea. Almost threw up.. Disgusting feeling! Had my bath and dropped dead once i reached home.

Did stupid things in school as usual today. Shujie was laughing so frantically by my silly actions. Hahah. Went over t vista after school for bubblet. and my fav sour sweets. Headed over t junru's place then. Slacked and lazed ard. She claimed that she finally saw the unglam side of me. LOL. Which got me think really hard. Did she actually mean that i look glamourous almost all the time? I dont really think so.

Heh, walked back t school at ard 230 for sudoku. Stayed back awhile after that then met mira at causeway t pass her homework. And then.. I met love. :D like so finally la. After so many donkey days. He sent me home, had my dinner then left home for cell. Had a wonderful time with the girls. :) but i wasnt pretty much myself. Not sure whats going on this few weeks.. Hai. Will be going for the festival of praise with SALT tmr. Yayyy. I bet its gonna be real fun. Hehehe.

Anyway, there's this really big hole in my shoe. & me like. HAHAHAHAHA.
I love my baby. He's excessively sweeeet today <3
Dont worry, love. After our exams, .. (: i love you~

so many things, so lil time.

2009-07-29T19:49:00.018+08:00

Mr kumar : So how? We meet at one of the void decks ard vista park this friday? The school wont be opening until 9pm.
Me : Huh, meet for what? You planning t rape us ah?!
Regina : *LOL!*
Mr kumar : Omgggg this girl! Why are you having such thoughts? Omgomg.
-and he turned t regina-
Mr kumar : Does she have a boyfriend?
Regina : Have. *still laughing away, lol*
Me : It's quite normal t have such thoughts what. No meh?
Mr kumar : Omg. I am going t call your parents alr.

LOL. So, we have t complete our folio and product by this month. And crap, im still like stuck at material list for pete' sake? This is so shxtty. And tonight. I have t ..

> Revise for tmr's physics test.
> Complete christchurch '08 chem prelim paper. Mr tan's going t check tmr(!)
> Get my detail development done. Then quickly start working on my methods of construction, working drawing and production flow chart!!
> Math?
> Call qinaide regina up and burn midnight oil tghr with her.

There's so many things t do. But so lil time. I guess i wont be having much sleep tonight alr. Gonna quickly go shower, have my dinner and start my engine for tonight. G'bye!

Baby's sick. :( get well soon, love!

chionggggg ar.

:'(

2009-07-28T19:39:00.001+08:00

I miss my boyf so freakily much la!
Ttm is not even enough lor. Wahlao.

Oi dar, are you seeing this? I miss you so much laaaa!! :(

dredging on,

2009-07-27T19:43:00.007+08:00

I felt so off today, couldnt concentrate at all. Was so blur. The side effects of my medication, i guess. I felt as though ive entered the wrong class when i stepped into the classroom this morning. Couldnt find my seat. And my books were missing(?!) Lol. But it turned out that they are all at home la. LOL.

School > geog coach > dnt > drenched in the rain (>.<) > causeway > macs > cottons on > chatted with reg qinaide on the platform for half an hour before proceeding home.

I like the weather today. And i hope that mira can really get well soon! I feel guilty ttm seeing her likethat ): sorry love! And junru! Please takecare of yourself. Dont fall sick okay. And fret not! I will speak t you in english more often de! Hehehe.

Cramps suck suck suck suck suck!
Blogger sucks too. Cant upload pic zzz.

P/S : I want lotsa money!!!! Who is willing t give me? Lol.

i thought i had wandered into a dream.

recuperating.

2009-07-25T10:25:00.003+08:00

Missed two days of school :/ aiting came over and passed me the weekend homework yesterday, thanks girl! I almost fainted when making my way downstairs t meet her. Those medicines were not working until today. Fever's finally gone. My throat's hurting quite a bit still and the dizzy spells have yet t disappear. Have t get well soon, theres tons of homework waiting for me t complete 'em. Gonna take some rest again. G'bye.

x -----

zhicheng > yah, i guess so? (:

ESTHER > whatever, :D
Sheryl, > LOL. its not like you did not see my sister before lur. of course not twins la! hahah.
Sheryl, > im not sad anymore. just sick lol.
Lewisaah. > so you think its funny, boy? why not say you disagree t the fullest extent. zz. LOL! kiddin'! haah.
kAiLiNg ♥ > hey sweet, :D sure, thanks luv.

zhicheng > "you have your strong points .." LOL, duh! who doesnt have. hahaha. thanks bro, i will de. ^^
bobby > *ahem* thick skin! oh & happy 8th monthsary btw, di! :D
zeng, > yo love! yeahyeah, ive cheered up too. misses t you! <3
zeng, > LOL. how possible can my mirror reflection have a different pose as me? hahha.
Regina ` > WAAA lol.

ESTHER > yah, self-claimed cute :) no! he's mine ~
zhicheng > extra -.- LOL.

wendy > hey lovely! im sick. ): but recovering alr! you? (:
Sheryl, > hi darling ^^
Junru. > im recuperating-in-process. miss me right! hehe.
zhicheng > yes. thanks for your concern, im alot more better than the past 3 days. (:
nholas ! > LOL?
Regina ` > haah. i know, i know. (: missyou too, love.
Junru. > (: <3
● shadajieeeee > thanks girl, i will de. (:

-- > lol opps! thanks for correcting me. ^^

sick.

2009-07-23T20:32:00.004+08:00

Current's temp : 38.8 degrees.

Wokeup with a sore throat yesterday morning. Was freezingly cold even before we went t the AVA room which was air conditioned. Thanks for your jacket, junru. :) My throat started feeling really unwell after recess. Reached home, took temp. Realised i was down with high fever. The feeling was @#$%^&*! Felt like im gonna die any minute. Parents came home and brought me t the doctor's. I was suspected of having H1N1 at first but dang, i didnt have flu. And it turned out that i was hit with virus infection again.

Feeling real groggy right now as im typing all this out. Sorry if you dont get what im saying. 'cos im very blur and not clear-headed now. The reason why im sitting in front of my laptop now is b'cos mommy wants me t stop lying on my bed. I feel so xinku!

Heard from junru that 5 of us in class were down with fever. And 3 were sent home today. Omg, this is so scary. I think i passed my virus t mira 'cos i hugged her yesterday. >< sorry darling! Gonna go take my medication ler. Byebye.

focus!

2009-07-21T19:54:00.012+08:00

MY CURRENT LOVE! :D Eunhyuk's so damn hot!! *drools*
Not only him lur. ALL ARE HAWT. Except for Kyuhyun. Lol.
20 july ; happy 7th month, my love. (: <3
With each day and month passing, im only falling more and more in love with you. Cheerup, baby. Life will get less stressful if you relax alil. Not t worry if you'll neglect me or anything. I'll be understanding, as always. :) I dunno if you'll be stumbling upon this, but i'll always be here for you darling. Loveyou, muacks.

Not much time left 'til O's. :/ the next 3 months will be crucial. I've wasted way tooo much time. Dont be too surprised if you happen t see me not smiling and getting all stressed up and moody this few weeks ('til nov) . Hah. School havent been really stress though. But all the past year exam + other schools' exam papers are piling up. I cant seem t finish 'em T.T there were some really difficult t the max emath papers that just never fail t demoralise me so freakily much.

FOCUS MAN. I need t focus! Distractions, please leave me alone. Serious mode is on. I dont wanna let my parents and friends down. Gonna chiong very hard for this last lap. I'm gonna grit my teeth and pull through everything. I MUST make it and will make it!

standing back on my feet, once again.

SUJU! (L)

2009-07-18T22:34:00.002+08:00

Hey lovelies. I'm feeling alright alr. Sorry for making some worried last night. :/ thanks for being so concern, t those who cares. :) <3

Special thanks t my qinaide and zeng! Thanks for listening t my heart. Cheerup too, the both of you! We'll overcome this kind of unendurable oppressive feelings tghr, okie? & sheryl love! Dont be unhappy. Wait 'til tmr and ill cheer you up k. Think of me at the very moment. And you'll be smiling gradually. Hehe.

I miss darling. ....

my heart beats faster whenever i see you.
i lost my words the moment i saw you.

x -----

shujie > LOL. c stands for chloe too, mitang! haas.
zhicheng > updated. :)
bobby > lollll. missya, di!
zeng, > HAH! how alike man?
zeng, > yeah, update twitter jiu no need update blog alr. hoho.
Junru.Baobeerrr > hi baoberrr! :D you never update your twitter de! rawr~
SING YEE > HEY WOMAN! yeah, damn shocked la! nooo, you arent forgotten! imissyou man!

Sheryl, > mwahaha? LOL.
Paulineee.t! > helloooo dear! ^^
Sheryl, > LOL. really ah? thats my twin actually. hahha!

Lewisaah. > cheered up! :D thanks boyf!
Regina ` > im okay alr, qinaide! <3 you, cheeeerup too!
zeng, > im smiling wideeee right now. :D you too yeah? haha.
zhicheng > no worries, kor. im fine alr ^^ hees.
Junru. > thanks baober. :) loveya!

acidic tears,

2009-07-17T23:50:00.004+08:00

ISOLATION. LEAVE ME ALONE.

I'm not feeling good. The feeling im having now is indescribably, insanely lousy.
This throbbing heartache .. seriously suck. My heart cant breath. It's deprived of oxygen.

My eyelids are feeling so heavy after letting my tears out.
Why am i still blinking away the tears even after ive stopped crying.
Hais. Cant you just care and shower me with more concern?
Cant you share your burdens with me?
I just wanted t help out by lightening and lessening the weight of the problems which youre going through.

You dunno how helpless i feel. You dunno how worried i am.
You have no complete idea.

.. choked with tears.
loveyou.

i need your assurance so much.

2009-07-16T19:22:00.006+08:00

I've got nothing t update about. Life's pretty mundane. I'm so sick of my life. Why are we growing up so fast? Why is the time flying past so quickly? I mentioned that i dont have anything t update right. Maybe yes. Some bullcrap conversations with some bullcrappers in school, if you dont mind.

/in dnt workshop, during dnt lesson.
*notices that the water level in the sink is raising* the sink's choked.

Me : cher, careful leh. the workshop will soon be flooded.
Mr kumar : huh?! why? what will happen!? (y'know, those normal stupid reactions he gives -.-)
Me : there, you see the sink. flooding in there. the whole workshop would soon be gone. *grins*
Mr kumar : eh, you okay or not ah? (he's been asking this question 'cos i always seem t look very stressed up infront of him)

And you guys know what happened after school, during dnt coach? There really was a "flood" ! Which was what i foresee. So, please people. From now onwards, do not take my words lightly. HAHAHA!

Another conversation which took place in the dnt workshop. The guys were cursing and using vulgarities as usual when i asked ..

Me : eh, why are y'all forever cursing and swearing?

Mengkiat : 'cos its some kind of trend?
Me : dont bullshit lor. trend your head la. its not as if its something new or what also. you people have been scolding vulgarities since forever.

Mengkiat : then what, whats it called?

Faiz : nah, the new trend is for you t shutup. (he spoke too fast that i can barely catch)

Me : huh?

Faiz, mengkiat and all the guys : HUH LANPAAAA!

Me : -.- sian diao.

Oh! & yeah. Mr tan brought us t the chemistry lab last week. He was going through some copper(II) thingy.

Faiz : cher, copper(II) the 2 not write in front one? [2Cu]
Mr tan : b'cos copper(II) is an element, so the electron number must write at the back. like this, Cu2+. Cu1 & Cu2 are also written in this way.
Faiz : ooooh, then CuLater?
*the whole class burst into laughters* I was daydreaming, didnt know why the class L-O-L, so i asked shujie why is everyone laughing.

Her : i also dunno, they laugh so i laugh also lor! hahahahahaha.

-.- -.- -.- -.-

Okay, i think that's about it. I've updated! :D

Last but not least, HAPPY BIRTHDAY, AHBEE DADDY!

b'cos ive alr gotten my eyes set on you.

the reason is you.

2009-07-13T19:52:00.008+08:00

Cheerup zhicheng! Try not t let those tiny weeny lil stuff and worms neither bother you too much nor too long :) smileeee brother ~ you can always confide in me whenever youre feeling low/disturbed.

Just got up from my afternoon nap. Had a really awful nightmare. Sheesh.
I'm so worn out today. Kept dozing off in school today. Esp after school, during geog coach. That's probably b'cos i didnt have adequate amount of sleep last night after helping out with some painting work, i guess? Came home straight after that, didnt have the stamina t last 'til 6pm for dnt. Dropped dead on my bed the moment i arrived at home.

Baby replied my text msg alr! :D

for its about you.

x -----

zhicheng > i still painted, eventually. :D
Junru. > i realised my mood seems t enjoy having roller coaster rides on thursdays. so watch out, woman! haahs.
Regina ` > yeah, thanks so much love! loveyou, my qinaide ^^

bobby > whoa, hello diiii! :D
zeng, > hey there, cherry pompom! ^^ hahaha.
zeng, > yeah, it was really enjoyable! but fun .. i dunno if it was. LOL.
Junru. > LOL. act cute la you! please, can you like get a life? hoho.

Sheryl, > hi love! im alright alr. :D im feeling happy, you must be elated too okie? haha!
YENGTIEN > yo tien! :) nah, having my prelims in august. im quite free, currently. haha. actually im not supposed t be -.-
Sheryl, > and im going t yours everyday too. hah! update la you!

Regina ` > thanks qinaide. appreciated it alot. :) im fine alr. hehe.
zhicheng > nahhh, not going t play anymore. stupid game. LOL.

i dont like!

2009-07-10T23:29:00.004+08:00

I miss crystal and oreo, t the very max! Haiiii. I'm wondering, wondering if they've been leading a pleasant life. Are they contented with their current life right now, at this moment? Have life been a bitch for 'em, like how mine have been like .. How I loathe this inhumanly calloused universe so much. I dont like how things are fallen out of place. Righttt, duh. Like who fancies that. Human beings are pathetic living things. And some people just have t get a life. I actually have a whole chunk of unhappiness t voice out. But I'm afraid my emotions will get the better of me. So, g'night.

love # 200 .

2009-07-08T19:29:00.002+08:00

My poor thumb got injured during dnt yesterday. :( and today, my wrist's bandaged too, all thanks t mr faiz. -.- thanks ah, manjer. Please kindly ignore the horribly drawn features of a saddist's face above. It wasnt drawn by me, but my qinaide regina. Lolll.

School has been fine. I'm drowning in my studies though. Chem and geog esp, hai. I totally cant catch any balls during chem. Will be building castle in the air, and my mind will drift and drift and drift t a far farrrraway land ; without me noticing. Just when I was dreaming (like any other day) today, I suddenly felt someone splashing water at me and jumped in my seat! -.- it was mira. What she did bring me back t reality. And I actually paid attention after that. But still, didnt know what mr tan was teaching. Like what mitang told me before, "All I can see is that his mouth is moving non stop. But nothing just goes in at all." So lew, when are you going t help me contact the tutorrrr? :/

Anyhow, someone's making me miss him like anything. .... It's been 15 days since i last saw him! *inserts millions of :'( here* miss his silly face and smile so much. Hais. I'm feeling pretty random right now. I wanna catch the haunting in connecticut! Desperately. I'm clueless who t date though. Number of names flashed through my mind, but I'm lazy t ask em out. Hahaha!

Cant wait for sunday. :D hehe.

you can always close your eyes t the things you dont wanna see.
but you cant close your heart t the things you dont wanna feel.

look into my eyes,

2009-07-05T16:14:00.009+08:00

What is love? SALT is. :) you guys rock my life man! Like totally. I really hope that we'll all be able t take a full group photo tghr, soooon. When the losts are t be found, and the runaways t be back. Luv you guys a plenty. <3

Sismag has gone overseas for her trip. So instead of uncle teckjee taking over, we had jiahao over today, with ruth's company. :D he is kyuteeee! :x all the girls were like drooling when he was up there, preaching. Well, almost all. Esp my sister -.- she looked like as though she's gonna devour him anytime. Lol. Afterwhich, we had lunch tghr @ some nearby coffeshop as usual. Sat ard lazily, slacked then home after like 2 hours.

It's pouring now. Peals of thunder sounded intermittenly. Lightnings are displayed so awsomely. Oh, how I love such weathers. They never fail t enlighten me.

P/S : I miss you, friend.
P/S/S : I wanna see love. :(
P/S/S : Kim hyun joong! :D omg omg.

i never thought i'd fall for you as hard as i did,
when i look at you my mind goes on a trip.

it's only you.

2009-07-01T18:36:00.012+08:00

happy birthday, darling love! <3
may all your wishes come true and all the best in everything you do.
me luv you. :) mwaaah.
so school has started. im finally feeling the jitters for O's! i dunno if its a good thing or the otherwise. b'cos im feeling the stress only now -.- why not in january?! sheesh, better late than sorry though. will be starting my revision like, next week. cross my fingers and hope that i dont procrastinate this time! its time i should really wakeup alr.

will not be updating this space too often either alr. i have no idea what t update about my tedious life.

there's no one else that i'd rather be than with you.

my apologies.

2009-06-28T15:40:00.002+08:00

as much as i wanted t help, i feel so helpless.

love # 188 .

2009-06-26T16:19:00.004+08:00

the reason why this photo is so unclear is b'cos leeshujie's camera skills' too good alr. -.-

movie marathon was .. hahhaha. i cant find any descriptive words t describe how it was. not that it was not fun but i was more dead than alive. was really high before screening those movies but collapsed right after the first movie was screened, when the second one was starting. totally worn out. wokeup after the third movie had finished for the following show, 28 weeks later. then dropped dead again after that. the place was too cold and i was too exhausted t stay on, so i headed home with sister @ 7am.

collapsed in a heap on my bed right after we came home. slept all the way 'til 3pm. and was feeling alil unwell when i wokeup. ugh.

i was suddenly craving for 7up raspberry and potato chips, and when i told mommy ..
she went down t ntuc and bought em back for me, almost immediate! gosh, am so freakin' touched. and guilt-ridden. for always shouting at her, giving her effing attitude, throwing tantrum, blowing my top, and being extremely unreasonable.

im so blissful. this, i know.
whats with me is that i dunno how t treasure and cherish the people and things ard me.
im learning, and trying hard t.
for i dont want another person who is dear t me t leave again.

anyways, school is starting in 2 days' time! and i havent even touch any of my hol assignments. sheesh. why am i still not feeling all tensed up when O's just like a few more months away?! really feel like giving up .. im so drained out.

i miss you. your big hands, warm hugs, passionate kisses.
and your killer smile.

lips like morphine.

2009-06-25T14:40:00.005+08:00

gotta know that there's no dnt today at the very last minute. so prepared myself, and went over t love's early in the morning after receiving his text msg. KO on his bed immediately after i reached his place. was very tireeeed. rested awhile, and i was famished. darling cooked maggie mee for me. although it was a lil .. haha! but still, thanks love :) slacked ard, slept, and tadaaaa! here i am now. @ home. lollll.

tonight will be a blast, i reckon.
MOVIE MARATHON. WITH SALT! :D

alright. shall go and watch my anime now. 'til then!

your smiles never fail t melt my heart.
your touch never fails t weaken me.
your hugs and embraces never fail t make me feel loved.
your kisses never fail t make me giddy.

sweet like sugar.

2009-06-24T17:23:00.005+08:00

hoho! im back. ^^ mom bought me a new laptop! yay. but its pink -.- anyway, finally, some proper update. :)

14 june > church bbq. lets have the pictures do the talking yeah? not all pictures are uploaded though, am lazy t do so :x hehe. there's too many alr.

15 - 18 june > SALT's 4d3n camp. too many pictures, too little energy ..

23 june > sentosa.

LAZY T UPLOAD ALR. LOL. BYEBYE.

recollection of the past.

2009-06-13T22:02:00.002+08:00

SUP YOOO. im finally able t get my fingers down on the keyboards. haah, my comp's still in ICU though. currently @ caleb&stephen's place. so, life has been fine, i guess? had been going back t school for dnt everyday. shag. next week is finally a break for me. church bbq tmr! camp on monday t thursday! and 23rd t sentosa with my beloved people. yayness.

* tags reply.

傻恩老弟 > yo laodi! :D yeahyeah, will miss you der. miss me too k. :) heees.
urchella > helloooo. i still miss my hair ):
PAULINETANG{LAI}! > DONT WANT! NEED T WAIT VERY LONG DER. LOL.
zhicheng > yah, need. haha.
bobby > you always bomb me one lur, stupid!

. / ♥MAY > see dao my hair ler bah? lolll. you stalker la! LOL. yeah, i remembered too -.- haha.
PAULINETANG{LAI}! > OKAY, WILL DO IT AFTER MY COMP'S DISCHARGED. BUT MUST WAIT VERY LONG UH, 'COS I DONT WANT IT T BE SAVED. HAHAHA! thanks for saying that im cute. hehe. *shyshy* LOL.

Mengkiat > but you havent finish it. haha! when are you going t help me with mine?!
Love > hi darling! no, not happy. lolll.
# regina ` > nah, you sneezed b'cos you caught a cold. thats why. :) hahha! please miss me for this whole week okie? heees.
zhicheng > thanks for helping me inform em, kor. (:

. / ♥MAY > cut lor. (: haha. what else? its down, cant be used.

YUENHEEEEEEEE! > boxim jiu shi boxim lur! seeya tmr, zhu!
C-HERYL.SIM > takecare too. (:
heping > smoochieeee! :D i miss you! see you on the 23rd okie? heees. remember t miss me! hahaha!

bobby > not i dont want reply okie. my comp's spoilt lur, idiot di.
JANE. > updated. LOL. dont care about him la, he's sick! hahahaha.

misses t my one & only.

2009-06-04T20:07:00.003+08:00

someone tell me. why are boys this sick? ._.

english booster programme was ~~fun~~ bored today -.- mitang didnt come. and belvis came and sit next t me. thanks boyf! i wouldve died of boredom if not for you. we were given 2007's O's paper2 t do. and as usual, i ended up chatting away with belvis instead of doing. :x emath lesson was cancelled. walked t vista for lunch with qinaide, aiting, faiz, haziq and afiq before dnt. stupid qinaide, kept saying she felt like vomiting. scared the hell outta me only! ><

aiting went home when we headed back t school for dnt. decided t go home with qinaide when all he cares about is em. no point staying back when i didnt even have the chance t speak t him! (this is actually an excuse, the real primary reason was b'cos im too tired. LOL) when can i finish my product making at this rate? damnation. came home & slept my entire afternoon away. hehe. sleeping's still the best! yuenhe zhu finally contacted me after sucha long time. bastard, mei liang xin de.

P/S : i miss my hair ): ): ): ): ):

i love you, my baby boy.
youre the one who formed the smiles on my face.

& i forgot t breathe.

2009-06-02T23:36:00.003+08:00

20dec ; thats when i love you.

01june. skipped dnt and went out with sismag, yinhui kor and ahbee daddy. :x t bugis and cabbed down t orchard @ ard 8pm. shopped 'til ard 10pm and home. sucha unfruitful trip made ; i couldnt find my stuffs! will be going there again next week. hehe.

02june. wokeup @ 9am, showered and prepared for school. had 2 hours of geog. and i practically wasted that 2 hours, dont ask me what i did. hais. went over t vista for lunch with junru, qinaide and aiting after geog. qinaide was so damn lucky can?! there were so many worms found inside her rice. but the stall holder was unwilling t give her a new bowl of rice. she was told that those worms werent worms but dunno what stupid things inside the rice shells -.- like real only uh! they looked exactly like worms t us lor! bullcrap only. sucker.

walked back t school without junru for dnt after lunching. i was totally melted by the sun. zzz. ive finally started my product making. not happy. LOL. mr m made another person's blood boiled again today. HAH! the person was none other than .. lai aiting! it really makes me wonder how he managed t "sneak" into wgs, and become a staff. i wonder how high is his pay. shiok lor, do nothing down there, just frown, knit your eyebrows, say you having headache, cant think of anymore ideas and tada! touch your pocket and the money's there alr. likethat when i graduate hor, i also wanna try coming back being a staff leh. so shiok! BULLCRAP AH!

stayed in school 'til 5pm and went home with qinaide and aiting. ps mengkiat :x sorry la boy! we'll definitely be going back for dnt tmr, guarantee + chop okay? lolll. back home and went out t meet the 2 of em again @ 615 for a haircut. my hair now .. looks weird T.T its so short when tied up! (as compared t before la) AND! i told the hairdresser i wanna trim my side bangs, she helped me cut em into bangs -.- im too faceless t step out of my house liao. my hair's so light now, i felt that i had almost no hair left. omg.

met darling love after qinaide and aiting went home. :D slacked @ the staircase for awhile before going home. i love you, muacks. :)

love # 162 .

2009-05-31T23:59:00.002+08:00

the previous week was the last week of term2. i mentioned that i was real stressed up on wed, didnt i? yeah, but was kind of relaxed on thurs and friday. slacked quite a bit. i dont like mr m. he's forever changing people's ideas. bullcrapper. i tend t be quite rude t him and attitude him, ive noticed.

so here it goes, mr kumar and mr m was having this conversation, talking about my product. mr m didnt let me use acrylic 'cos he said my product will be too expensive. he only allowed me t use mdf board and another ugly + lousy + useless material, and i disagree t a very great extent, like duh! but mr kumar agreed with what he said. zzz. i was really fuming lur, then i blurted out, " EH, I AM THE DESIGNER LEH! " mr m stared at me, stunned. i think his jaws almost dropped. LOL. while mr kumar went LOL, like literally. they then let me use acrylic for some parts and mdf board for the rest. i still wasnt quite happy, but well. dont really give a damn also la.

'til mr tan walked into the workshop, i let him see my 2nd newly made model. he was satisfied. i then asked him if i could use acrylic, and he was like, " of course youre using acrylic what! " and yes! it was my chance t complain t him that mr kumar and mr m disallow me t use acrylic. but wkaka, he supported me! with a hidden motive actually. ill have t fabricate 4 sets of my product. 2 for O's and mr tan will send the other 2 for dunno what stupid competition -.- waaaa. i dont think i can make it lur. alr so stress liao, still want me t make 4 sets. ill seriously die man. like this, i wont have time for my other subjects liao. hoho, merry christmas t me man. but what t do. i cant defy him, can i? later i must use mdf board then i know ar. ....

hai, enough said of dnt. i realised i have been talking about dnt in almost every of my posts. lolll. so .. yesterday, headed down t pasir ris park for florence's bbq with darling and friends. (: its been 4 years+ since i last went out with yengtien! she has changed so bloody much! loll. thanks for accompanying me, girl. i know i had the sian look on my face, but i wasnt really sian lur. hahha. thanks so much for your company. ^^ im lazy t go into details but, i kind of enjoyed myself uh. hehe. reached home @ ard 1am. dropped dead immediately after having a quick shower.

today, mommy sent sister and i t church 'cos we were late. im too tired t recall what we shared during our sharing session, please forgive me. slacked @ church 'til 2pm then uncle paul fetched us down t expo for global day of prayer! i really enjoyed myself during the worship man! it was greato! everything ended so quickly though. went t sembawang for dinner, i had only chicken wings. lolll. then went t sembawang shopping centre and shopped only @ daiso and giant. did crazy and embarrassing stuffs. we were stared at everywhere we went. we laughed non stop for 2 hours+ LOL. home at ard 11pm. going out with sismag tmr! i wanna get my stuffs, but im broke T.T I WANT T CUT MY HAIR! okay, maybe tmr. am going t put back my tagboard tmr too. haha.

oh yeah, all the best t those who are taking their MT 'O' tmr! jiayou! OKAY, I AM TIRED. MY MOOMOO'S WAITING FOR ME. G'NIGHT ALL!

ive alr fallen into the deepest depth.